Two Years After Augustine's Disappearance
1 August
August,
Hindi ko alam kung paano ko sisimulan lahat ng sulat ko para sa'yo. 730 days have passed, and I still struggle to say what I must tell you. I've been writing to you for two years now, and yet, it feels like I've written nothing at all.
I keep replaying every moment we spent together and every word you said to me. Gusto ko na lang suntukin ang sarili ko dahil lahat 'yon ay ngayon ko lang naintindihan.
Kung nakinig lang siguro ako, kung hindi lang ako nagkulang, siguro wala ako rito ngayon at gumagawa ng sulat para sa'yo. Maybe you wouldn't be gone.
Hindi ko alam kung mababasa mo itong mga sulat ko, pero araw-araw akong humihiling na sana makarating sa'yo. Kahit walang kasiguraduhan na babalik ka.
But please, August, please come back. I miss you more than I can bear. I need you.
Do you ever think about me? Naiisip mo ba na walang segundo ang dumaan sa buhay ko na hindi kita iniisip? Because it's true. It's all I know how to do.
You once told me that your name means a time for change, right? For letting go of the past and moving forward. Na hindi makaka-usad ang isang tao kung hindi niya iiwan ang lahat sa nakaraan.
Pero paano kung ayaw kong umusad? Paano kung gusto ko lang maghintay rito? Dahil paano kung... bumalik ka? Sa panahong sumuko akong hanapin ka, paano kung ako naman ang hinahanap mo?
I miss you, August, I really do. Nothing feels alive here anymore.
Wherever you are, I hope you're happy and find the peace you were looking for. And if, by some miracle, you ever come back—for heaven knows how much I keep praying—know that I'm still here, waiting, in the place where you left me.
Always,
Lucas
BINABASA MO ANG
Until August
RomanceSeeking a fresh start, Lucas moves into a new condo and unexpectedly finds solace in his neighbor, Augustine. As they grow closer, Lucas begins to heal, but he soon realizes Augustine is quietly bearing her battles before vanishing without a trace. ...
