At My Darkest

Love is scary.

It stirs up different emotions and attitudes that you thought you're not capable to have.

For love makes you...

Happy...
Angry...
Sad...
Vulnerable...

But life without love is a lot scarier.

You wanna know why?

Because ....

You will live in vain.
You will live unhappy and unloved.
You will be lonely for the rest of your life.

You will be lost...

Who do you think will save you if you push all people who care for you?

This is a story of a woman who gave her 100% love and trust to the person she love most. What will happen to her after he lost her love?

And lost....

herself?

Will she regain her old self or will she make a new world that full of lies?

A/N: This story is inspired by Miley Cyrus. Please let us not judge her or shall I say to all people we met at their worst for we don't know what trials they are going through to find their self.

At guys!! Tagalog to ha! Nosebleed na ako sa Intro. Haha

Enjoy!!

Prologue:

"Honey!! You're late. Kanina pa ako naghihintay sayo." Sabay kapit ko sa braso nya.

Nasa school kami ngayon. Sabay ang end of class namin ni Jerome. Magkaiba nga lang ang course namin kaya naghintayan kami dito sa tambayan namin pag wala kaming pasok sa next subject o break namin.

Napatunganga ako nang dahan-dahan niyang inalis ang nakapulupot kong kamay sa braso niya. Kita kong seryoso itong umupo at humarap sa akin.

"Joannah" titig na titig sya sa akin.

"Yes Jerome? Di pa ba tayo aalis? Gumagabi na." Ngiti kong sabi sabay upo sa tabi niya. I don't want to entertain this weird feeling I felt right now.

"Let's break up." Agad nalusaw ang ngiti ko. No. Nagbibiro na ito. Baka gutom o pagod lang ito.

"Ha-ha-ha. You got me-"

"I'm serious." Biglang kumabog ng malakas ang dibdib ko.

NO...

Hindi pwede...

Hindi maari...

"Nah. Let's go. Kelangan mo ng magpahinga." Hinawakan ko ang kamay niya par asana hilahin sya pero inalis niya ito.

Nasaktan ako. Nahihirapan na akong huminga.

"Let's break up." Naiiyak na ako pero pinigilan ko.

"May kulang ba Jerome? May nagawa---"

"Wala. Sumobra pa nga eh." expressionless pa rin ang mukha nito. Ako lang ba ang nasasaktan?

"Yun naman pala eh. So why are you breaking up with me?" Mahina kong sabi.

"Kasi nakakakasawa ka." Parang bombang sumabog sa harapan ko ang sinabi niya.

"Masyado kang mabait. Puro ka nalang aral. Hindi ako nag-eenjoy pag kasama kita Jo." Naiyak ako.

"I can do that Jerome. Kaya kong gawin ang gusto mo w-wag mo lang akong hiwalayan." Sabay hawak sa mukha niya.

I can't afford to lose him. He is my life. Hindi ko alam ang gagawin ko pagnawala sya.

"You can't Jo. You can't. Trust me." At ngumisi sya ng nakakaloko. Napatigil at napabitaw ako sa mukha nya.

Hindi, kaya ko. Kayang kong gawin kong ano man ang gusto nya. Mahal ko sya.

"I can. Just tell me what to do." Nagmamakaawa kong sabi.

"Nakapagdesisyon na ako Jo. We're done." At umalis ito.

Naiwan akong luhaan. Gusto ko sang sundan. Sigawan kung ganu ko sya kamahal pero alam kong wala ng silbi dahil...

HINDI NA NYA AKO MAHAL.

Ang sakit. Gusto ko nang magwala.

Parang bulang nawala ang iningatang apat na taong relasyon.

Ganun nalang talaga ba yun? Ganun lang ba kadaling kalimutan ang lahat para sa kanya? Bakit ganun? Bakit ako lang ang durusa?

Hindi ko na alam ang gagawin ko.

Panu ako magsisimulang muli?

Panu ko hahanapin ang sarili ko?

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