The Broken Ones

Chapter Four

Salem POV

I wake up, and I go to move but I'm trapped by heavy arms that are way too familiar, I look over and see Mattheo sound asleep. I immediately get up as stealthily as possible, and I succeed. Why is he in my bed? I think. I try to remember what happened last night; my head is spinning. I can't remember anything after I took that pill, I quickly get dressed and leave my room, hoping that when I come back, he's gone. I feel like I just betrayed my dead twin, I need a shower to get rid of every trace of him. I immediately run to Cassiopeia's dorm. I knock and she answers and it's obvious I just woke her up.  

"What's wrong Salem?" she says groggily.

I walk in and plop down on her bed "Do you remember anything from last night? I might have done something stupid, but I don't know because I can't remember a damn thing."

She looks at me shocked. "Uhm, it's kind of blurry but, I remember you dancing with Theo-"

"Which Theo?" I ask urgently 

"Theodore, and then Enzo got into a fight, and I think Mattheo took you to your dorm-"

"fuck, icantbelieveididthisimsuchahorriblesistericantbelieveilethimintomybedafter-everythinghesdon-" I uncontrollably ramble.

"Salem!" Cas yells "You're talking too fast for me to keep up, what's wrong? what happened?"

I sit up "I think I slept with Mattheo" Cas's jaw drops "I woke up this morning and he was in my bed and I'm wearing different clothes, and I took Molly which makes me really horny, and I have no clue what I did." Cas looks at me shocked and sits on the bed next to me trying to process what I just said

She sighs "it's okay we will figure it out." she says whole-heartedly 

I lay my head in her lap; she plays with my hair "Can I shower in here I need to wash the thought of him off of my skin." I say shivering at the thought of me and him in bed again after everything.

"of course, babe" she says laughing." I go and shower.

Mattheo's POV

I wake up, I smell Lavendar and Vanilla, Salem. I feel around I don't find her; I open my eyes and I'm in her bed but She's nowhere to be found of course she bailed; she still hates me. I can't deny the fact that I'm a little disappointed, I thought maybe since she told me to stay last night maybe she was finally getting over Loki's death but, I guess I was wrong. Nonetheless I need to talk to her. I get up and go to my dorm to get ready for the day, I probably should shower but I don't mind the lingering scent of her. I walk into the great hall for breakfast I see her sitting and talking with Theo and Enzo, she's sitting next to Enzo touching his face which is covered in bruises. I feel a little jealous but then I remember I'm supposed to hate her just as much as she hates me.

I walk up and sit next to Theo who is sitting right Infront of Salem "what are we talking about" I ask nonchalantly

Salems eyes flash up to look at me, they're filled with pure rage she quickly looks away, she puts on a very fake smile and says "Teasing Enzo for fighting someone and then not remembering it" she lightly giggles

if you don't know her you would believe that she is truly happy, but I do know her, and I know how good she got at faking for her family. I give her a look letting her know I don't believe her at all, she looks away and doesn't look at me again the rest of the day. After curfew I sneak out and go to the astronomy tower for a smoke and to clear my head, I hate the feeling of being hated by Salem, the thing about Salem was she could care with all of her heart if you proved worthy of it but the second, she stopped caring, you lost her. She didn't just stop caring, she started hating anyone who she didn't care about, so instead of indifference you received pure rage, and she was taught how to do magic without a wand, she got so good at it that she could kill someone with a flutter of those pretty lashes. So being hated by her should be one of the scariest things on the planet, I however find it incredibly irresistible, but I hated it aswell because that meant I couldn't touch her or act like I cared because it would make the anger worse, caught up in my thoughts it takes me a little too long to realize there's someone up here with me, I quickly turn around and see Salem, she's in a t-shirt and some shorts with her dark curls loosely pinned back.

She goes to walk away "what you can't even bear to be near me on one of your favorite nights?" I say with a chuckle. She looks at me shocked, she probably didn't think I'd remember, but I do. Salems middle name is Ara, like the constellation and tonight it's the brightest it will be until next year.

"I hate you," she says dismissively 

"I know, but it's your favorite night so maybe you can tolerate me, so neither of us miss it." I say taking a hit off my cigarette "but if you really can't bear the thought of sitting with me then i will leave so you can enjoy it by yourself"

next thing I know she's sitting next to me and takes the cigarette from me and takes a hit "fine, but you have to answer a question and it can never be brought back up again." she says this, and my mind immediately goes through all the possible questions she could ask. I never expected her to say: "did we fuck last night?" I look at her shocked. does she really think I would take advantage of her, when I know she wants nothing to do with me? she continues; "I don't remember anything, but I can use context clues I just need confirmation that I'm a terrible sister with horrid morals" she says clearly spiraling.

"We didn't fuck, I took you to your dorm, you puked your guts up then asked me to stay with you, so I did. The reason you were wearing new clothes was because you stripped in front of me, then I got you dressed and then you laid on the floor of the bathroom for an hour puking. Then when you finally stopped, I carried you to your bed and you asked me to stay." I say and I can visibly see her relax and a little of her anger towards me goes away. she doesn't say anything else we just stare at the stars.

Then, out of nowhere, she says, "Do you remember when I used to act like this day was my second birthday, and I would ask for gifts, and Loki would always complain because he didn't have one?" She says this light-heartedly. I'm glad she can talk about him in a good way.

"Yeah" I laugh "You called it your constellation-day" I say, and I can see her slightly tense up

"I know it's been 25 years, but I've been unconscious, so this is my first constellation-day without my twin, and it sucks because all day I've been waiting to come out here and a small part of me was hoping that he would magically show up," she says with tears in her eyes then all of a sudden, I see it happen, she goes from mourning her twin to hating me all over again. "It's all your fault! You decided to pick a fight over something so insignificant, and Loki being Loki he just couldn't let it go! And you always had this infuriating need to prove that you are better than everyone else!" she's sobbing at this point she stands up, so I stand up "You don't get to pretend that you're my friend or that you cared about Loki because it's your fault he's fucking dead!" she starts pounding on my chest "It's all your fucking fault! If you would have just stopped for a second to think then maybe he would still be alive! Maybe we wouldn't be like this, maybe we could have had a second chance! but you went and screwed it all up and killed my fucking brother!" she stops hitting me and goes silent and sinks down to the floor. 

I panic "Go ahead hit me, yell at me, hate me, do whatever you want, but don't go cold on me again, I know it's my fault! I wish it could have happened differently, but what do you want me to do about it now?! He's dead! There's no way to bring him back! how long is it going to take for you to realize that!" she looks at me and all I can see is rage. All she does is silently stand up and walk away, and I realize I've lost her again. So, I make the decision to finally stop caring about Salem Scamander.

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Authors note

soo what do we think, did we enjoy the angst? 

lmk what you think :)

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