Healing hearts Hidden truths

Chapter4

Rosalyn's pov:

I stare down my desk lost in my thoughts. I think about what happened with Emily earlier. I shoudn't have let her walk off angry. I should've asked her what was wrong and listen to her. What I did was wrong, I wasn't being a good friend.

I feel guilty. Like really guilty. But I mostly felt angry. Angry with myself for always doing wrong.

"Miss Harper!!" I startle at the shout and look over at my science teacher.

"Read to the class what the exercise is about." He says a bit harshly.

Great! That's exactly what I needed.

I look at my book and open my mouth to read out loud but nothing comes out.

 I'm doomed. I don't know what exercise he's talking about and for my defense they all looked the same! 

I swallow the lump in my throat trying to seem calm and in control. I look around and all the students are looking at me. They're probably judging me. That thought alone makes me want to puke my lungs out. My heart speeds up and I get all hot and sweaty. 

This is not good, like at all. What's wrong with me? Why do I always react to attention this way? Just why?!

Please not now! I close my fists and try to breathe at a normal pace again but it's no help. Just as I was going to apologize the teacher cuts me off.

"I'm dissapointed Miss harper." He gives me a disaproving look and sighs.

I lower my head and apologize. I hated deceiving people, it's something I hate with my whole entire being, yet, I still manage to do it repeatedly. That look he gave me was way too familiar and I don't know how to feel about the fact that I always dissapoint the people around me. 

It was inevitable, like a curse. Whatever I do, people are always not happy about it, but I don't blame them, hell I totally get it. I'd be dissapointed in myself too...

The bell rings and I push away my thoughts and bury the emotions swirling in me deep inside.

I put my stuff in my bag and leave the classroom in a hurry. I need to find Emily and see if she's okay.

It's 3:30 o'clock meaning everyone was rushing to finally go home. And it was a bit chilly, the air seemed different. I guess it's raining. I smile. I love rain, I don't know why people hate this weather so much but if you ask me, rainy days are so comforting.

I suddenly spot Emily by the doors and push my way through the packed crowd. 

I finally reach her but she just glares at me and walks off towards the exit like I was nothing.

I frown, slightly hurt, but I quickly dismiss it. If she didn't want to talk to me then fine I wasn't going to force her anyway. 

I don't know why she was being like this and I don't like it when we fight. Ava probably feels the same way as I do. Lucky her, she called her dad earlier and told him she wanted to go home. Whatever Ava wanted her father made it happen, he really loves his daughter more than anything and he would do anything for her. They have this incredible bond that makes my heart hurt sometimes. I wasn't jealous, it was the opposite. I really loved seeing my bestfriend get along with her father but it made me greedy sometimes. I really wish my parents and I were on good terms but what can I do huh?

I suddenly felt sad... I take a deep breath, sling my bag over my shoulder and leave the school. 

It was indeed raining but it wasn't comforting this time. It was depressing, or maybe it was just me.