Secret Desire of the Beast

Chapter 7

Isabella

I keep tossing and turning in bed, I look at the clock and see that it's 3 Am. I don't know what is going on with me, but I know I need to sleep for a few hours at least. Maybe it's just my nerves but I don't know why I would be nervous. I would much rather be working and trying to get this article perfect. Maybe that's why I can't sleep, or maybe it has something to do with that daydream I had about my boss. Why does he have to be so good looking and hypnotizing? Something about him drives me crazy and I don't know why I'm reacting to it a lot. I also don't understand why I was having that dream after I looked up the BDSM definition, like something inside of me needs to have it and if I don't, I'm without a purpose.

I need to tell Carrie about this tomorrow and see if she has any Idea what the issue could be. I know she's submissive and clearly that stuff is growing on me. So maybe she can give me an opinion or help me understand what is going on with me. I just need to close my eyes and relax so I can rest peacefully. I don't want to be crabby today of all days. My dad hates it when I am crabby because I take it out on the people I'm around. I wish I didn't do that, but it happens sometimes. Today I will change things: The way I react to certain things or holding my anger in if I don't agree with anything. I have been trying to work on this for a long time and didn't have any luck before. As I'm lying here and thinking about my flaws, I find myself drifting off to sleep. I closed my eyes and breathed as I started thinking about everything that had happened on Friday with Daniel.

The way his breathing made my spine shiver, my knees shake, even my pussy gets wet when I'm next to him. I just need to be near him and I'm not sure why it affects me so badly. I need to know answers and I will be asking Carrie everything in the morning, I just take a breath and sleep for a couple of hours and wake up refreshed and relaxed. I rub my eyes and gasp at the dream I had. The weird thing is I found myself on my knees in front of him and honestly, I liked it. I didn't want the dream to end but I need to get up and enjoy my day as much as possible. I look at the clock and it's 9:00 am which is very surprising given the fact that I couldn't fall asleep until early morning. I walk down the stairs and head to the kitchen. I look in the kitchen and see that my dad is cooking and making the plate look pretty, he was always one for presentation.

"Do we have any plans for today?"

"I made a reservation at the café you like for a late lunch."

"That sounds perfect."

I love how he has a relaxing day planned. Maybe I can get some research done for work if time allows me. I know I should leave the office behind me and wait until Monday but for some reason I can't help but wonder what the club is about and more importantly I keep thinking about Daniel and having a daydream about him. I don't know why I keep having these, I wonder if it's just natural for women or if it's something else entirely.

"Are you okay Bells?"

"Uh. oh yes sorry daddy, just thinking."

"Whatever it was had you blushing."

Omg!! My dad saw me blushing. This isn't a good thing; My dad would think that there is something else going on when there isn't. I need to find a way to throw him off the trail or to change the subject before he tries to push the topic further.

"No, I'm good. What time is the reservation?"

"Not until 2:00"

I nod and walk upstairs, and I sit in my room to think about what should I wear to lunch with my dad? It will be cute but not showing too much since I'll be around my dad. Oh, I got just the right outfit, it will be cute but fashionable at the same time. I wonder if I put it back into my closet though, oh wait I think I let Carrie borrow it. Well, there has got to be something that would be appropriate and cute at the same time, my thoughts get interrupted by a knock on the door.