Under his protection

Bunny

*Quin*

The doctors said they managed to get her stable but they don't know if she will hold and they can't move her out of new York without risking her life.

"So we stay in new York or go home" I ask the doctor wanting to have some direction in this directionless void I feel.

"You can go home, if anything happens she will be sent home and you will be told. However I would like to see Maxwell first" I nod and call Max over who doesn't move so I pick him up and rest him on my hip. "Maxwell, we want you to know we are going to do everything we can to help your mommy"

"I no Maxwell, I bunny. Mama go ge bettr" he speaks slowly to try and speak normally but he is feeling a lot of bug emotions for a little. I rub his back as he starts to cry again.

"We are going now, can I see her one last time before I go" the doctor nods and I leave both littles with Zeek. Lauren looks weaker this time and she doesn't even lift her hand she just lays. "Lauren, I promise you that Max will live a life with no more worries if he has me.... He has my protection and I'll love him just like Daniel. But that doesn't mean you can just die on us Lauren so please don't fucking die." I tear up slightly and take her hand in mine.

I hug her before I leave, I didn't notice Max was standing in the doorway until just now but I don't get upset. I smile softly and walk slowly towards him. "Hello little one, are you here to see mama" I ask him and he shakes his head no and points at me.

"Mama" he points at Lauren. "Dada" he points at me. "Papa" he points at the door where the waiting room is. I'm surprised he even called me, us that so easily... I guess he just needs comfort right now, he is scared and he doesn't want him mama to die.

"Yes that's right, so smart. Come here love and we can go home wait for mama to get back" I smile forcefully and open my arms for him to come to me. He hesitates at first and whimpers looking at Lauren. "Your mama will hopefully be home soon. She is still hanging on ta the moment, your mama is a fighter... Come on, bunny" as soon as I call him his pet name he turns to me. I reaches his hands up so I lift him into my arms.

"B-bunee" He says softly.

"Yes that's right, your a baby bunny" I say softly and he hugs my neck crying softly.

*Max*

"Your like a bunny" Lauren says with a cheeky smile.

"What?! No I am not how am I like a bunny??" I huff back as we lay in bed together.

"Your all fluff, your not scary to me at all. Your just a poor little baby bunny, all fluff and no bite" she teases me.

"That's not fair, I am scary..." I pout softly.

"Of course you are bunny, the scariest of them all" She gives a sigh and strokes my hair as we fall asleep...

"Poor bunny, I love you so much and I want you to never forget about me... But I want you to eventually see Quin as your new daddy and feel happy. And-" that same phrase repeats in my head. She cried and when everyone else had fallen asleep we stayed up. I couldn't sleep, not when she could die any second.

"Mommy are you really gonna die" I whimper, I'm scared and I want her to say no of course not but I know that she might...

"Oh bunny, I wish I could say I'm not but you know that if I do I always loved you. And even if I die I'll always be looking out for you, you know that don't you" Even though she is clearly in a lot of pain she still speaks softly to me.

"Yeah, but I don't want you to go" I sniffle, biting my bottom lip to try and not cry.

"Everyone dies, but I'll always be alive in your heart. If you talk to me I'll hear you up in heaven where there is lots of food and fun and it's lovely up there so I'll be okay. And you will have Quin and Ezekiel who will take the very best care of you. You will never be in danger and I'm always looking out for you" Lauren kisses my forehead. As soon as she does I heard the machine flat lining. I panick, shouldn't Quin have heard but he isn't there so I let out glass shattering wails for help. Someone pulled me off Lauren and took me out the room until she was out of view.

When I overheard Quin talking to Mama in her sleep I was touched by his words. He wants to love me just like Daniel and Make sure I'm never wanting for anything... He is so willing to take me in it's scary.

When he called me bunny I nearly cried and I thought I would slap him because that's what mama calls me but instead of felt a strange sense of comfort. If Lauren wants me to be his until she gets better than I will, he will be my daddy until Lauren feels better, of she feels better...

The whole plane ride home I just layed in the bedroom with Quin, Quin didn't want me to be alone. He was singing some song to me but I wasn't really listening... I was just trying to call out to God or anyone up there and tell them to watch over her no matter what...

I want mama to be safe.
I want mama to come home.
I want... I want my mama.