you know what i hate the most when i become the nicest human ?
it's when i feel tired , but have to do everything my friends ask me ,
just because before this they kinda struggling a lot doing something for me .
it's when i feel want to be sad , but have to be happy and cheerful ,
just because my friends are feeling really bad mood at that time ,
it's when i feel want to punch someone face , but can't ,
just because my friends is feeling kinda okey with that someone ,
it's when i want them to hear my inner voice , but i have to avoid it ,
just because they are struggling in life more than me ,
i keep telling myself all the possible event that possibly happened 'that day' ,
"oh maybe i go home early that day."
"oh maybe i don't help them buy things that day."
"oh maybe i am not really helpful that day."
"oh maybe i don't even deserve the credit."
"oh maybe i am just invisible in their eyes."
"oh maybe im such a pick me at that time."
but i just keep my smile ,
cause i don't want them to judge me ,
don't want them to label me as attention seeker ,
don't want them to feel miserable ,
don't want to lose my friends ,
and i don't want to feel like a loner in that class ,
they said that we have to make lots of memories in high school , but ,
i think that it's better for me to just focus on my studies than making the memories.
YOU ARE READING
my poetry of life
PoetryThis is my first ever poetry book , I never really wrote any poets before and english is not my first language , So I'm sorry if there are any mistake in the poetries , I hope this book can encourage a lot of teenagers to be better in life . -syazaa...
