Satosugu: A compilation of feelings

Change.

○ This POV is an alternate universe in which if they did get together, what had happened for them to get there? How did Satoru manage to get Suguru out of his storm?
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                             Satoru Pov:

*after the incident*

I notice his behavioural changes. As much as I'm spending a lot of time working on my own technique, I can tell very well the incident has affected him by a great amount. I can see it's been weighing down on him. He's changed by a substantial amount, and I-- what am I doing?

His eye bags continue to grow darker each passing moment. The light behind his eyes slowly dimming. What is wrong? "Talk to me" is what I wish to say to him. But why can't I? Just today I was him sitting with those eyes again. Those..beautiful purple I fell for with each glance he gave me. I must be insane, but *my* Suguru..he isn't the one I'm seeing right now. And I don't like that.

Today he cried. It was a stab to my heart. Who knew tears could be such a painful force to the heart? My heart wavered. I'm glad I confronted him. Glad I knew what was causing the pain that brought to his eyes. He was spiralling out of control.
His morals and pillars of life were crashing one by one. "What's the point of saving them and risking my life for them if all they do is look at me with disgust afterwards?" That's what I understood. He felt exhausted. Both mentally and physically. His life was slowly but surely oozing out of him little by little. But I believe there's more. I simply need to unravel it. Slowly, and step by step. I need to change to be able to understand and support him. I need to change to give him that comfort he lost. That security he was ripped away from.

I need to change if I want My Suguru back.