Ghost One-Shots

UPDATE - Where I was

Hi- first off I wanna apologise to all the people who have been waiting, y'all are amazing and I'll (hopefully) give you really good one shots soon ♡

Sooo where was I?

Short answer : Very sick and emotionally unwell.

Long answer : My health has been getting worse, especially the chronic pain and chronic fatigue and it feels like my doctor doesn't even believe me, so I have to do her job and list my symptoms to find matching possible diagnosis. I spent most of my time sleeping, seeing a doctor (for various reasons), or researching what I could possibly have. So far I have found 3 main hypothesis and will have to make a file for each one and how my symptoms match. The most likely one so far is sclerosis, with the 2nd being fibromialgia.
Emotionally, I've been feeling very unwell due to how hard it is for me to go out and socialise, and how painful it is to do literally anything. Ive had to process a lot of information, like someone's death, a lot of my trauma coming back, and a DID split (and having to manage that new alter) so it kinda felt like everything was trying to kill me BUT I SURVIVED and I'm gonna keep fighting.
I started T in April (finally ^^) and even tho it makes me more emotional, I overall don't have any negative effects which means I can keep taking T ^^
I think once I finally get top surgery I'll be able to go to the gym again and have a better social life, which will improve my mood and will also help me get my chronic illness diagnosed 🖤

And if you're struggling too, please keep fighting, it gets better 🖤

Side note : My writing style may have changed a little since I've been writing a book (it's a big project but I can't say much about it 🖤) and my english may have slightly improved so you may notice some change 🖤