A Movie of Our Own (wlw)

36

Charlotte

Today is my first day back on set since New York and my stomach is going crazy. It's been about a week since we've returned and Brooke and I haven't contacted each other at all.
And I don't know why my stomach gets this upset when I'm nervous but it's definitely doing a good job of making me miserable. I'm just afraid that it'll be awkward with Brooke after all we did after that past weekend. We didn't text or even call so I'm guessing the air will be filled with tension.
Which makes me even more anxious just thinking about it, oh god.

Deep breaths.

"Good morning Rue, my princess." I say as she climbs her way onto my bed.
I quickly sit up and take her into my arms and give her fur long strokes, making her meow a bit. "Did you miss me?" I coo to her as I pet her more.
"I bet you did, leaving that pee stain on my carpet, huh?"

Luckily Lena got the majority of the pee stain out before I even arrived. So while there is a stain, it's very faint and I don't think you'd be able to tell that it's there unless someone pointed it out.
And yes, I told Lena about how I ended up staying with Brooke.

Her reaction?

A loud ass yell, she practically made me eardrums pop.

I told her practically everything. I told myself I wouldn't but I just couldn't stop whenever I saw Lena's reaction to everything. Plus, she's my best friend, I don't know why I thought I would be able to keep that within me.
Rue lets out a meow once more before walking out of my arms and lying down next to me. "Sorry no cuddles today, I gotta go to work." I sigh as I hop out of bed, Rue following behind me. She then walks out of my bedroom, disappointed by my lack of attention.

I wish I could stay home, but today I'll be on set. Hopefully I can get some kind of day off soon.

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"Hello Vicky!" I greet her as I sit down in my makeup chair.
"Hello Charlotte, nice to see you again! How was the rest of New York?" She asks as she begins to work on my makeup.

I think back to my trip to New York and all I can think of is Brooke.
Her kisses, her warmth, the way she held me, and how she was in bed. Which is something I shouldn't be thinking of, but it's something that you just can't get over.

"Umm, it was good.." I nod my head.

"I can't tell if that means that you had a good time, or a bad time."

"Oh, you know it was more work than anything else really. I'm glad I went, yes, but I just wish I could've seen the city more." I sigh, knowing I had the best time I could've had.
"That sucks I bet. I mean, but I can't relate," We both laugh together, "But I will say, I always love going to New York."
I nod my head, agreeing with her.

She then goes back to concertating to on my makeup, applying more product to my face. And brushes sliding against my skin.

And just as the place goes silent once again, I'm faced with a nervous feeling in my stomach once again. It's not a bad feeling, but it definitely makes me want to get ready and done with hair and makeup so I can face Brooke.

Waiting this long feels like hell.

A death sentence even, and I'm not the impatient type, but this feeling is really testing my patience.

Vicky continues doing my makeup, and we make small talk, some moments full of silence because of the way she was doing my makeup. But those moments of silence soon started making me think. I feel that I shouldn't be nervous to see her. We have shared so much of each other, physically, that nervousness shouldn't even be a feeling at this point, right? But I enjoy it. Ugh, I'm making this much more complicated than it already is.