SMG4: Y/N's C&D Adventures || SEASON 1

I'm sorry to you all...

Hey guys, I come back once again to bring yet another update.

This time around, I've gotten back to my main issue that has been ongoing and I'm willing to be that you know it, too. I've hardly been making updates so frequently and not keeping up with a lot of the promises that I've made especially to all of you, which is very unfair to you... I know😞

I'm more ashamed of myself than ever that I'm procrastinating on the things that are fun to do and better see you all loving what I do, It's as though I'm holding myself back and not giving others the things that they want most or even carrying out things that I've said before that I wanted to do, even for you all. I don't know why I lack such motivation to keep going on with much of the work as far as Fanfics and I've been working on keeping my IRL in balance so that I don't suffer from any mental issues that can lead to me ending up as something terrible or a far cry of what I used to be.

I never meant to keep disappointing so many and yet I'm just holding myself back from ever becoming what I want to be and not sharing much my feelings and thoughts towards you guys because this is something of a Livelihood that I have for myself that I don't do for popularity nor notoriety, but simply because I enjoy certain fandoms and I like making this stuff as showing my love for them. Sometimes, I want to be able to get up and get to work on making content such as this and yet I find myself to not have the energy or the mentality that I feel is necessary in order to keep these up.

On top of that, It's because of this problem I have that even caused me to try and cancel series that I've noticed were growing so much in so many unexpected ways or even scrapping ideas for new ones that haven't even gotten ONE chapter published. I'm so awful about the way I treat you all and I want to make it up so badly but I don't know if I'm in the exact spot to do it.

Don't get me wrong, I don't want to QUIT on making Fanfics as I still resonate and love them as much as anything else even when I have the freedom to share my ideas and create my own spin towards a Story that's already been told that I can have power to morph into my own. The Joy that comes with knowing I can come up with such Ideas and then share them for people like you all to see is what I strive for the most, but It's because of my procrastination and my difficulty of trying to motivate myself and give myself the ability to keep pushing forward as I should be is what gets in the way of wanting to keep making more for you all.

I even wanted to bring other Fics that I haven't touched back and recreate them again while paving roads for new ones while spreading them to other platforms. Being the one and only person, It's no doubt that I can and will struggle to always keep up with everything that goes even in the smaller aspects because I'm so dependent on events in my life that are supposed to be the most important to me that I forget I have other responsibilities such as making you all as happy as I can with the stuff that you all have the most interest in. I never want to stop where I am now because I have faith that I can change and I can still do this, but I feel I should stop making promises and rather do the best I can.

Because it shouldn't be you guys and your entertainment that I have to be the most concerned but My happiness and fulfillment as well, yet I've been acting like I really want to have my satisfaction or needs as I simply want nothing but the best for you all while I'm slowly taking apart more of myself for others that I'm going to be nothing but an Empty Husk that gave away too much of themselves to others that there was no more of them to give away.

So with that, I want to tell you all that I am probably going to be taking a Hiatus for a while and I don't know when I'll be back. I may make another chapter for one of my series but I wouldn't count on it. I want to feel like I have the freedom to make my decisions for my own sake and find my own joys in life so that I can spread to you all with Fanfiction being the biggest way that I can.

I don't mean any harm nor do I want you to believe that this is something of me trying to "Unsubscribe" myself, but purely to inform that I want to take a Mental Health break so that when I feel I can return, that I can have a better attitude and continue to excite all of you like how I have always tried to and hopefully, I'll find myself in a better position.

Thank you