SCHOOL CRUSH

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      I am a very decent and polite girl to the surroundings, but the extreme of creepiness flowed in me when I had a crush on him, which is known only to me.

      He had a PT period twice in a week . I would excuse myself for restroom so that I can drool over him who was sweeting under the sun .

      I wondered how he gets handsome more on tanning was it only on my eyes or in real.

      He was a district level football player .

      Whenever he kicks a goal and turns around, he shouts to cherish the victory my heart will be explodinv with joy. He will jump and kick his leg of foot and raise his hands in the air in triumph .Those moments, I would have an urge to clap and whistle for him.

       There were moments when he accidently stared at me after the goal, and I would be floating between the clouds .

        It was an eye-catching sight to see this well toned biceps glowing in sweet as he would wear the team vest and shorts while playing.

        I always had a desire to touch and feel his biceps .

       The staff room is on the way of his class.

        One of the reasons for me to volunteer to be to the arrogant class rep to place the dairy in the table of our class teacher and to take it return.

         He will be sitting on the bench second from the last near window  . I will look at him from the corner of my vision field.

        He will be rolling the pen or pencil between his index and the middle finger while paying attention to the class.

        Do you know what I did ?

        I bought a similar pen of his, and when he was in the ground enjoying the PT period , I exchanged his pen with mine.

       I still have it within the dairy. I use that pen to pin all his words to me in this dairy.

         I use it for important purposes like I filled out an application to my college and then used it for entrance exam and so on.

           During the class test hours, staff would tell to sit two in each bench and others to disperse in varenda.

         I will gladly get down and settle myself in front of the window of his class.

        I would gwack at each of his moves while pretending to think about the answer.

        But truth to be told, I would have completed the test within the first 15 mins but sat there till mam grab the note from me and ask me to get in.

        Still, I will spare a look at him and walk in.

        Even when I go to the temple , I would do the pooja in his name, too, without knowledge of him . Those days , I was more  stubborn on the thought he is mine .

       I must take care of him as it's my duty . Crazy right ?? Now, I don't have a habit of doing the pooja daily but  still do it on his birthday.

       I was very much into him. I guess

       On my birthday , I would use to get dresses similar to the color he wore later realised it's always blue may be his favorite .

       I would score above 80 on all subjects yet above 95 or even cenum  in Science because his mother is my science teacher in SSLC.

      I don't want to taut by my mother in law nor want her to despise me and reject me in the future.  

      I was her favorite student till I felt the school .

      Truth to be told, she has the habit of pulling years when we make mistakes . I shivered, thinking of her pulling my ears any day in the future as I woke late or forgot to add salt in dishes.

       I got to know her favourite and in the conversation we had, she blurted  many things about MADHAN too like his favourite food , he had a habit of chewing his finger till now also he still wets his bed at times.

      How cute is he ... ? Guys, don't drool over him he is mine... understand ?

       And enough of the past ... I am also tired. I have school tomorrow . I am not any more student but teacher well SCIENCE TEACHER. I initially read the subject to get in the good side of his mother later, and it became my profession.

     When can we meet again ??

     No one is responding with my conversation. Don't you guys have a school crush, or my feelings are boring for you.

      Tell me... Do you think J will meet MADHAN again? It's been 7 years since I met him last.

      Anyway byee...