⚠‼️️⚠️Tw: angst, self harm reader, suicidal, fluff? And self criticism and eating habits⚠️‼️
"I can't believe how much weight I'm
gaining..." You mutter to yourself as you look in the mirror
"Who would date this mess?" You tell yourself as tears filled your eyes. You grab a blade, and dig it into your wrist.
You watched a drip of blood came out
"I hate this stupid life... I just wanna di-" you were cut off by your door opening
"hey Y/n! You ready for our sleepover?" You closed the door on your best friend, varian
"Varian! I'm in he restroom! Knock!" You nervously spat out
"Oops! Sorry!" He chuckled
You hurried to clean up the drop of blood on the counter, wrapped your arm in fresh toilet paper so the blood doesn't go through your clothes, and you put your sweater on, and put the blade in your pocket. You fixed your lipstick and then walked out
"There you areeeee! You took forever!!! Imagine trying to wear makeup! Couldn't be me!" Varian laughs
Your laugh as well, "well you don't have a horrible face to cover up, I do" .
"Say that again and I swear, I will go full evil alchemist on you!" He goes dark
"Oh no. I'm so scared. Someone. Help. No-o-o-o... The angry cinnamon roll threatened me. Help. Never break your promise" you say in mottotone.
"Jerk. No cookies for you" he sticks his tongue out at you.
"Nooo please Var-bear!!! You make the best cookies!" You hug him
"Nope! Your being a naughty girl! Making fun of me" he looks away, feigning pretend anger
"Please! I will be your best friend!' I beg
He grins and tackles you to the floor hugging you
"VARIAN!!! NOO!" You laugh and hug him.
But the you guys hear a metal thing hit the floor. And suddenly a wave of horror creeps on to you. He looks to the side and sees you pocket knife. Covered in blood
"...y/n...what the heck...? Are. .are ..are you a murderer?!" He gasps
Y/n POV:_----------
"What?! No no no! That's paint!" I reach for it but my sleeve slides up showing my wrapped arm. He gasps and grabs my arms
"Y/n...why...? Why?!" He starts to cry
"no no no! Don't cry, please..." I start to cry.
Next thing you know we're both sobbing on the floor like dimwits.
"Y/n...why? You can talk to me" he stares at you in the eyes
"No it's just ..well ..." I sigh
"Well... I started... (When you Started)"
"Why?" He asks me.
"Because...well ... (Story. Of all the stuff you went through. I'm sorry for everything btw, I hope you get better, genuinely!) so yea...I started .self-"
He cuts me off by... pulling me in a kiss
But I instantly melt back
He pulls back
"Hey, you have worth. You are beautiful, because God made no mistakes. You are a masterpiece! Best voice and laugh .. the way you smile. The way you walk, the way you talk, the way you can make a difference in peoples lives even though you can never notice it. You are incredible! Screw what people have to say! Are they you? No! Screw your parents, your family, your friends. Screw that voice in your head! Screw me! You are an amazing person, y/n. No one and nothing can take that from you!" He hugs me again.
Maybe... maybe I will be okay
YOU ARE READING
Varian × Reader one shots
Fanfictioncalling all Varian simps! p.s characters don't belong to me! but anyway, I take requests, and don't worry I won't make any ones where they die at the end!💜🧪🦝
