The Oldest Mikealson

[31] Everything is my Fault

Enzo and I just finished up our dinner and were just talking. I had to silence my phone cause Stefan kept blowing up my phone, I had texted him earlier saying I was having dinner with Enzo and that I'd see him when I got home.

"Well, it's good to see you Enzo. Remember when you kept wanting to fight me cause you thought you were 'stronger' than me? I found that hilarious." I smile at the memory that plays in my head.

" Haha, so funny. You know we've never fought..." He smirks and I laugh.

"Save yourself the pain boy." I smile. We fought about who would pay and in the end, I won, like always. We decided to head out and walked around Mystic Fall. All of a sudden Enzo stops in his tracks, I quickly look around in panic.

"What?! What is it?!" I turn to him confused as to what's going on.

"Thank you, Rora. For everything. You're like a mother to me and I couldn't be here without you." I relax after hearing his words. My heart melted at the meaning of the words.

"Of course Enzo, you're like a son to me. I just want what's best for you." I smile at him, and he leans down and hugs me. I wrap my arms around him. We stay like this for a few more minutes, before we continue walking.

It was midnight so we decided to go our separate ways, we said goodbye. The walk to the house was only 5 minutes so I wasn't too worried about walking to the house in the dark. Once I got to the house, I tried to be quiet not knowing if anyone was awake. I took off my jacket and went upstairs to my room, I didn't want to go to Stefan's room in case he was sleeping.

Most of my stuff is in Stefan's room since I end up sleeping there every night. But there were just a couple of things left like jewelry, make-up, and things that I didn't need every day. I go to the bathroom, taking a nice hot shower after such a long day. Once I finished the nice shower, I did some skincare stuff and put one of Stefan's shirts on with shorts. I walk into the bedroom, close the curtains, and hop into bed. The bed felt cold, I hesitated to go to Stefan's room but I decided to get in anyway. As I climb into the bed, I hear the floorboard crack. I look up and see Stefan leaning against the door frame with his arms crossed and a serious face.

"You're awake. I thought you'd be sleeping."

"You're right 'cause I would be sleeping well you're out with some dude until midnight." He spoke with attitude and hatred. I was shocked by the way he was talking to me.

"First of all, why do you get all protective it's not like we have a 'label' on whatever we do have. Second of all, it's Enzo if anything I see him like a son. And I don't have to tell you anything." I gave the same attitude that he gave me back.

" Oh I'm sorry, I just thought we had something since we confessed our feelings for each other. I was trying to go at your paste since you said you've never been in a relationship." His voice gets louder and he takes a couple steps into the room.

" Oh, so it's my fault now. Cause everything is my fault. I'm the monster in everybody's stories! I get it!" I yelled back at him. I was starting to trust and I was thinking about opening up to him thank god I didn't cause his just like everyone else. All they think is that I'm the monster and I need to be killed. I never asked for this life, I would never, and yet here I am taking the consequence because no one else can. Because I'm me.

" Ro..." hearing my name brought me back to reality even though I didn't want to. " Did you hear what I said?..." he looks at me with concern and petty.

" Don't look at me like that. Like I'm someone who's broken..." My words came out sharp and nasty but they had to.

"Ro, don't say that. You're not a monster, at least not to me and it's not your fault. We're just not seeing eye to eye and need to communicate better. You're right we didn't label whatever is going on between us, and you don't have to tell me everything. You said you've never been in a relationship before which means that there are gonna be times when you won't want to tell me everything and that's alright but it can't be the excuse for everything. I'm not here to judge you in any way, I want you to come to me when you're feeling vulnerable or lost, or when you don't know what it is that you're feeling." At this point, Stefan was sitting across the bed facing me. I looked down at my hands, picking at the skin near my nail.

"Why? Why are you so patient with me and want to do all of this for someone like me?" I asked without thinking, but the question had been there the moment we started fighting.

"Because everyone deserves to be loved. I can only imagine what you've gone through, you want what's best for your siblings, and you do everything in your power to protect them. But what about you? Who takes care of you? Who loves you the way that you love your siblings? You've been chased your whole life and survived while taking care of everyone around you. It's time that someone takes care of you before you go batshit crazy.-" I laugh a little while sniffling. I'm trying not to tear up cause that would be stupid and embracing. " You deserve to have someone to look after and support you. Let me do it. Let me show you what it means to be loved." I sniffle again, Stefan places his hand on mine and squeezes it. I nod my head a couple of times before looking up at those beautiful green eyes.

" Come here..." He whispers while opening his arms for me. I crawl over to him and hug him. " I'm sorry for yelling, I was just worried about you. You weren't answering my texts or calls and just thought of the worst. Even though you texted me saying you were having dinner with Enzo." He kisses the crown of my head and rests his chin on my head.

"I'm sorry too. I shouldn't have run out like that, but I had to. In that moment all I wanted to do was kill Damon and see him bleed. If I hadn't left god knows what I would have done. I should have called you to tell you I was fine and gonna be home late. I didn't realize how late it was until Enzo and I separated." I whispered it felt weird explaining my actions, I've never had to tell someone why I did what I did.

"It's ok, everything is alright now." He once again kisses the crown of my neck, before letting me go and standing up. I go back to my spot from earlier and wacky Stefan walks to the door frame. " Night Ro.."

" Night Stefan"

He turns off the lights walks and walks away. It didn't feel right to be in the bed by myself. Ever since I've slept with Stefan, it's been weird going to bed without him, like as if it was wrong. I'm able to sleep and rest, unlike other times when I have nightmares and just a sleepless night. Except for that one night, I did have a nightmare. I want to go and lay with him but at the same time, I don't want to depend on him to have a night of only sleep. I lay in bed to try to fall asleep but five minutes later I'm up and walking out of my room.

I stop dead in my tracks when I see Stefan walking up the stairs from the first floor. Once he makes it to the top, he looks to his left and looks at me just standing there. He reaches his hand out toward me, I walk over to his intertwine our hands, and head to the second staircase that leads to his room.