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My 2017

KT POV:

"Am not trying to be boring, man I hate boring people. Am trying my best to keep this interesting to who ever might find this diary when am gone, no.. am not running away or anything but I like to think of myself that I might not live for so long. Am 22 this year but how I wish I could get smaller, but not my dick tho #lol . This is crazy , writing a diary is definitely not my style, so silly , but I guess I got no one to tell this stupid thoughts anymore. Friends ? Yeah they are all dicks plus my hyungs ? I can't trust them completely, I mean I do but they joke around a lot and just when you don't know it , your secret is out . Funny I do the same thing to jimin , yeah he's my best friend and soulmate he says that but I don't believe in such things . But I had this one person i used to tell my secrets tho , and by that I mean all of my little dirty and weird things I ever done or experienced , and some i experienced with him . I considered him as my younger brother, aish now I sound like a pervert, but I never forced him on anything we both were curious on some nasty stuffs we hear from hyungs or see online . But now... here I am alone with you , if YOU are considered as a person I mean. Why?.. well let's say things got worse, he didn't die or anything no no.. it got worse in my heart , my head , my body , even my brain got affected . I blame him for it, I blame him for every fucken feeling triggering inside of me because of him , he didn't have any right to do so and I never gave consent to it either. Then why????"

16feb2017

         

'why did I ever agree to use this stupid diary' he murmured throwing it at nowhere in his room. His stuffs are scattered everywhere , he was never a good fan of cleaning his room let alone his mind from overthinking too much at everything . Well he should because he IS responsible for everything going on.
He threw himself on his bouncy bed staring at his ceiling silently. His mind filled with somethings...or someone in particular. He took his phone from his front pocket switching it on wanting to scroll through instagram.. but something triggered him again. His wallpaper, his fucken wallpaper , his heart was unease with it. ' fuck it' he thought out loud while scrolling his screen thought wallpaper set wanting to replace it with some random funny pictures. But did he really want that though?,..no...he fucken didn't . 'Fucken whyyy' he shouted loud enough for the next room to hear . But it didn't matter to him anymore and in an hour or two a knock was heard at his door.
'Yah Taehyung, are you okay in there?'  A-soft concerning voice was heard behind his door waiting for an answer. 'Aishh'   He growled while getting up immediately heading toward his door and opening it.

'Yes hyung' he stated out the moment the door was open. 'Why are you shouting so loud, you do know I can hear you right? , oh my god are you having sex ?' Hobi pointed out in surprise while peeking through his room. 'Ew hyung , noo am not thattttt low' He responded as pissed as he possibly could. 'Well you better be not coz the company would NOT want to have any scandals of us as we are about to become popular anytime soon' He stated knowing his younger was telling the truth. ' you probably should hang out with jimin and other members tae, you know next week our schedule is going to be so tight for the reality show and you would NOT be having fun after that' He stated while observing his younger face who had lots of thoughts that he knew none. 'Tae , is it because of Jungkook?, I realized you guys don't hang out that much , you're not even sharing the same room, did you fight or something?, He asked curiously. 'No hyung that's not it , am just trying to be an adult and more matured hyung , I mean we can't be fooling around all the time right,that's why am trying to distance myself ' He lied , those word were bitter than any kind of coffee you would recommend to him , he was not happy with it but he had too. 'Well if you say so , but today we are going out and I mean all of you , your maturity will start from tomorrow' He stated leaving the younger with no choice but to agree with it.

JK POV:

🎵 we laughed together,
       we cried together ,
     those simple feelings were everything to me🎵
 
Jungkook was away from this world , when he hold his notebook and a pen you can't tell him anything. He love writing love songs , although they haven't gotten the opportunity to release their singles yet , it doesn't stop him from writing his feelings down. He had a lot in his mind , he's probably thinking being an adult at the age of 20 is a curse. Nothing interests him anymore, neither the work he's doing nor his life . It's being weeks since Taehyung stopped hanging out with him and he's still in doubts if maybe just maybe he is not even worthy of having a friend, but really tho, was that all that concerned him??

'Boo..' a small charming voice shocked jungkook out of his thoughts which almost made him jump off his chair. ' jiminshii.. stop...agh' He pointed in annoyance. ' whattt ?... can't I joke around with kookie ..huh' he stated in annoyance as he face jungkook . ' you have been acting strangely lately, you have gone back to your quiet zone.....like yoongi  hyung, but you don't stay in the studio tho...' Seeming to go out of point to his own thoughts. ' what is wrong with YOU ?' He asked coming back to reality. 'Are you writing some songs again , wow can I see ..did you tell Tae .... You're not writing together this time' He shouted trying hard to peek on the note book . ' stop.. jiminshiii... why are you so annoying? And no am not writing anything okay, and please don't tell Taehyung hyung anything' He answered shushly. ' remind me why your in my room again jiminshi?' He stated . ' well hobi hyung decided to take us out today , his treat , and he doesn't want to take no for an answer ... of course if you do NOT want a tear on that innocent face' He stated out still trying to peek on jungkook's notebook before he shut it immediately. ' hey .. that's rude' He shouted while staring at jungkook innocent but yet fed up face.
Jungkook stood up and hid his notebook under the pillow before pounding it perfectly to keep it clean and neat.
'When are we leaving jiminshi?' He asked calmly. ' I could say NOW, I was told to inform you earlier but yoongi hyung took me almost an hour to convince him to leave his studio just to come with us for dinner...sometimes I wonder if he is really Not a grandpa trapped in a young boy's body' He pointed out exhaustly from remembering how much effort it took him to do that. 'Okayy ... yoongi hyungs mother, how many cars we are talking?' He has to ask that question because deep down , he knew he would never be able to be in the same space with his Taehyung hyung without talking to him, he is not used to, and never will. ' we are taking a van today jungkook. Hobi hyung will drive us , come on let's go.' He shouted heading outside jungkook's room who was following him from behind.

English is not my first language so please 🐻 it if am making too much mistakes on grammar.

So nervous

First page to write instead of my diary

Yeey

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