Jin's Kookie ~ one shots by Lyanalius

Say it

Seokjin and Jungkook are together for over six months now. Things are not bad between them yk..
Tonight they were casually sitting in their living room watching whatever was on the TV, when Jungkook spoke,

Jin ? Jungkook called out, making Jin hummed and turned his attention to him,

I love you, you know right ?

Jin smiled softly and answered,

Yes I know..

Won't you say it back ? Jungkook said again

. . . Um... Not yet..

*Sigh* I am tired of being the only one to say "I love you" I wonder if one day you will say it.

You know it's little bit hard for me right now, not that I don't but.. is it so important to say it, it could wait..

Yes it is, my heart is attached to your lips.. just say it

Look at me loving you without moving my lips. Don't worry, it'll be okay, It doesn't change anything if I don't tell you what you want to hear So ..

Everyone get it around, all my friends got sweet romantic confessions and sweet words from their partners . Maybe it's silly but, I also dream about it , I too want to hear it even if just once.

I know I'm not the one to shout out loud what's in my mind. But I tried to show you what I got in other ways better than words, or did I fail to do so ? Was it that bad ?

No, I feel it, I guess it, I see it but I don't hear it .You ask me to follow you, but I don't know where you're going . How long to endure, telling myself that you're like that? Your answers don't suit me Jin.

I'm sorry it seems like that, how much I would like to say it ain't my fault but maybe it is. Amma not be the best out there but I'm doing my best Jungkook.

I'm going to end up asking myself the wrong questions. Silence is golden, but that doesn't make you right. Just tell me, before I hear it,  how many seasons do I have to wait ?

.... Not long.., it won't take long I promise

Maybe I am assuming things, I'm the one that confessed first..., Do you even love me ?

I do, I really l.. l.. , j-just give me some more time and will say it. Please don't give up on us ... on me...

Jin.. Jungkook whispered and then hugged his boyfriend who now was shaking slightly, tears falling down his cheeks..

Please.. don't leave me, the latter pleaded in low voice, tightening his hold on the one in his arms..

Jin knew he shouldn't let his past affect his present, that the one right in front of him wasn't like that, he knew Jungkook really care for him, and truly loves him , and he too just do equally, but even though the feelings are now mutual he can't seems to get it out verbally..

but can you blame him, he is just a human, once hurt by the one he dearly loved, no matter how much he had said it he was left only with a broken heart and the fear of being rejected, abandoned or just left behind if he dares to say those simple words again.

Though he was also afraid of loving, he did found himself falling for his now boyfriend, the one that did everything to make him better, to heal his broken heart and bring color to his world again.

And he is aware of that, then why is it so hard to just tell the latter all that ? He asked himself.. Maybe cause he doesn't want to loose him, he might still be afraid he will leave him just like one did before , and the last thing he wanted was to loose him.