tw: suicide
*epilogue*
third person pov:
the words ran through his head. "theres something i see in you, it might kill me. i want it to be soon" those words ran through his thoughts, staring your body. you were cold, you were limp, you weren't you. jd stared at your face through his tears, you were so pale, so lifeless. that hurt jd too, but he still thought you were beautiful even if dead.
your pov:
it went dark, it went cold, it fell silent, i couldn't even hear my heartbeat. "so this was what death was like?" i asked myself in the abyss of darkness. i could hear jd's faint sobs and pleas for me to wake up, i could feel anything. crying felt to numbful, but his pleas for you to come back to him pierced my heart, "but why" i thought to myself, "he killed everyone i loved and took away everything. i didn't have to go but i did, got why am i so stupid? but im still in love with him. after all of this shit im still in love. hes a monster, how could love a monster?" i don't know but i did.
"hi....i'm y/n. y/n sawyer. dear diary, December 29th 1989. i thought i was a good person, but im not. i met him i loved him and i died because of him. jason dean. this is my last entry, before i'll kill myself. i'll be free and with my sister, it'll hurt but to do the right things is to do what hurts but i guess i'll skip the sappy shit and to the note."
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"dear world, or to whoever is reading this but its mostly likely you jason. i can't do this anymore, i have no one. no family, no friends.....just nothing. i killed heather, kurt and ram with jd. i wrote the notes, jd blew up the school but i didn't do enough to stop it now i costed everyones lives, even my sisters. this left me a myriad of scars, and maybe i can help the world by leaving. maybe thats the me inside of me. jd if you're reading this..."
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"i love you"
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"i always want you. and im finally fine. you're be over me looking into my eyes as i leave. you're someone to watch me die"
jd's pov:
i sobbed as i read the note again, over and over again. this wasn't supposed to happen. "y/n this wasn't supposed to happen! together forever! you promised me! did you not love me? did you hate me? was i nothing to you. you can't do this to me! you're all i want! you're all i have! you're my everything. i lose you, i lose everything. p-please i love you, so please wake up. i would have given you the world. i would let the world burn just for you, just for you. wake up! you can't be dead! please stay with me! fight for me! you don't even have to fight the entire time i'll do it for you, i'll fight for you! but fight just this once. please, stay alive. i can't do this alone." i cried into the crook of her neck before hearing
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a faint heartbeat.
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Decode - Jason Dean X Reader
Romance"Our love is God" "I don't believe in God" You are Y/N Sawyer. little sister of Veronica Sawyer. Veronica was brought to the top and you weren't but not like you didn't care. you rather have been nothing then a brat but you met Jason Dean, everythin...
