Decode - Jason Dean X Reader

Diet Mountain Dew

y/n's pov: 

i woke up in a new place, i didn't know where. jd must have brought me here, was i kidnapped? against my will? well i did join him like the idiot i am. i exepected to be tied down to the bed but no i wasn't. wasn't he afraid i would run? the door opened and i damn near jumped out of my skin. it was jd, duh! he smiled at me and he held a slushy, how thoughtful. yes that is sarcasm. he gave me the slushy cup but it didn't look like a slushy, it looked like mountain dew. better chug that mountain dew i guess. funny thing enough that was what i said to him when i fucked him for the first time, "morning darling" jd sat down next to me. "this doesn't look like a slushy" i said to him and he smirked "well i couldn't find a 7/11 sadly so i made a mountain dew slushy" jd explained and i nodded. i took a sip, tasted like mountain dew but colder. 

jd's pov:

i looked for a 7/11 everywhere, yup nothing. so i have to make it. i made it, it wasn't to hard but i had to use mountain dew, i hope y/n doesn't mind. but here goes nothing. i opened the door and she was awake but got scared that i came in, i gave her the mountain dew slushy and she looked at it for a moment. i sat down next to her and decided to strike up a conversation "good morning darling" she stared at the slushy for a moment before turning her head up towards me "this doesn't look like a slushy" i smirked, well of course its not it technically mountain dew. "well i couldn't find a 7/11 sadly so i made a mountain dew slushy" she nodded and took a sip, looked like she didn't hate it so hey that's a start. "why aren't i tied up?" i froze for a minute. "i mean aren't you afraid i'll run away?" she asked and i thought of a response. "you're not tied up because you don't deserve to be tied up, and i know you won't cause you love me too much to run and if you run im mostly likely running with you." 

y/n's pov:

i finally got to ask him what was on my mind. "why aren't i tied up?" he froze for a solid minute, fuck y/n! but i had to know. "i mean aren't you afraid i'll run away?" i asked and i could tell he thought for a moment. "you're not tied up because you don't deserve to be tied up, and i know you won't cause you love me too much to run and if you run im most likely running with you." damn it! does he read my mind. of course i wanna run but somehow he has a hold on me, stupid fucking feelings. i got up and threw the slushy in the trash, i don't care if that hurt jd at all im done with this. "where you going!?" jd asked following me. i just ignored him and stormed off to the front door, i reached for the handle but before i could open it jd pinned me against the wall. i didn't care if he was angry but somehow he wasn't, he had a lustful glare in his eye. no this is NOT where this was going. he attacked my neck with kisses, probably leaving hickeys claiming whats "his" like i was a fucking dog. but i didn't pull away or resist. next thing i know he's thrusting in and out of me on the bed. it felt good but so wrong, fucking a murderer. what was i thinking?

jd's pov:

she got up and threw the slushy in the trash, perfectly good waste of a slushy. "where you going!?" i asked her but she snubbed me, rude. she stormed to the door. no! i couldn't let her leave me, could i? of course not. i grabbed her before she opened the door and i felt lustful. it had been so long since we've gotten frisky in the bedroom so i figure this was a perfect time. i kissed her neck and made sure to leave hickeys so everyone knew she was mine. she didn't look like she was in the mood but she fucked me good in the bedroom. i laid next to her a bit tried and she looked like she was questioning her entire existence, god i love her. i wrapped my arms around her and kissed her forehead, she melted into the touch. "you know we should do this more often" i said being playful and she rolled her eyes

y/n's pov:

he wrapped his arms around me and kissed my forehead, i melted into the touch. damn it. "we should do this more often" i rolled my eyes. "no this will be the last time" he frowned. i didn't care, fuck it. "you're a murderer jd, a fucking psycho, today was a mistake. i will leave" i said i meant it, right? "please don't leave me" i heard the desperation in his voice, its heartbreaking but i can't care right now. "i will" i simply said like the petty bitch i am. "i can't live without you, i did everything for you. you can't just leave me like that. i-i love you" it almost made me fold but i had my heart set on leaving and i would. "you'll survive" i got up, i was only in my bra and underwear so i grabbed my clothes. and jd grabbed my wrist. "please? i love you" jd said, not this time buddy you won't make me bend over backwards....again. "no" i said sternly, "do i have to beg?" jd asked, you're not a dog slow it down. i just rolled my eyes in response. "please? please?" sounded like he was crying but jd doesn't cry. 

i got dressed and was about to walk out the door when jd fell to his knees sobbing "everyone else leaves me i can't have you do the same, i have no one but you. i can't lose you, i can't, i can't, i can't" he repeated "i can't" for a bit while sobbing and going crazy eyes. he's attached. but what he said and his crying was shocking i never seen him cry, sure i heard his heart and voice breaking when he thought i hung myself but i never saw him actually cry. it was answered, i couldn't leave. i walked over to jd and kissed him softly. his tears stopped falling and he kissed back. "please stay with me" he begged "yes" i nodded before i kissed him again.

jd's pov:

 "no this will be the last time" i frowned. "you're a murderer jd, a fucking psycho, today was a mistake. i will leave" ouch.....shes just gonna leave? no i can't let her. i won't. "please don't leave me" i didn't want my tears to escape from my eyes, i could hold it in. i did it pretty well when i saw y/n faked hanged herself. but i still cried, "i will" she just simply said that like it was nothing, women you're hurting me. "i can't live without you, i did everything for you. you can't just leave me like that. i-i love you" i sounded so broken hearted but i had to keep it in. "you'll survive" how does she know? i was planning to kill myself when i thought she was gone, i thought about ending it when she broke up with me, before i thought of my plan. she has be wrapped around her finger, i bend down to her, i worship her. she is my god, my goddess, she so perfect and i can't live without her. she has me hand and foot down for her, i wanna be her slave. 

and i am. she got up and she was only in her bra and underwear, god she looked hot but i couldn't think of that right now. i got up only in my boxers myself and i grabbed her wrist to make her stop. "please i love you" was all i could say "no" no? what does she mean no? does she not think i love her? or does she not love me? no she has to? i love her so much, please say that she doesn't hate me, please? i'll kill myself if she doesn't, she means so much to be and her hating me.....i rather be dead. it hurts so much, i can't live without her. she'll just rip my heart out and bleed me. she'll shatter my heart into a million pieces. "do i have to beg?" if i had to, i would. i don't care if i sounded like a dog i would do it. she rolled her eyes at me "please? please?" i was almost cryingand i sounded like a dog with all the begging. she just got dressed and  walked towards the door. i couldn't handle it, i couldn't. i fell to my knees sobbing, she stopped but i still couldn't control my tears, no one has made me cry since well....mom. next thing i knew she was kissing me and pulled away. "please stay with me" i begged still afraid she would leave "yes" i felt my heart leap through my chest, she nodded and kissed me again.