Decode - Jason Dean X Reader

You'd Have To Stop The World Just To Stop The Feeling

y/n's pov:

god the weeks had been hell, jd had me wrapped around his little finger and i couldn't stop it. he had a hold of me. i was always reluctant to kiss him, hug him, cuddle him, fuck him, or love him. i was sat on the couch reading a book before he jason sat down next to me. "hello my darling" jd said, he always called me darling. he started kissing my neck and i just shifted away but he pulled me back. i mentally rolled my eyes. he tried to kiss me but i pulled back and got up from his arms. "don't touch me" i said to him angry that he tricked me into staying in this relationship. he laughed "why are you laughing!?" i asked angrily about to kill the next person i see which was most likely jd. 

"you can't run from the feeling" jd said running his hand through his hair. it gave me deja vu to the day when i broke up with him after he shot his radio and forced me to kiss him. "oh yes i can, i feel nothing for you, you manipulated me to stay in this relationship!" i said as if that's what i felt cause its what i did feel. jd smirked "you'd have to stop the world just to stop the feeling" jd said, ugh how could he say that, no i didn't cause there was no feeling, right? "there is no feeling dick nose" he chuckled.

 "you'll be back" jd said the same way he did as i broke up with him. "ugh" was all i said as i walked to the counter, i rested my elbows on the counter with my head in my hands im nothing more than his toy. i hate how i ignored when they said "run as fast as you can" veronica, if you can somehow read my thoughts and are listening, you know you were right and you know im standing face to face with "i told you so" you know i hate myself, you told me so. you know i messed up, i'll always stop the feeling. i'll kiss a hundred boys in bars if i have to. jd came up from behind me and wrapped his arms around my waist, i sighed annoyed. he kissed my neck and i just groaned in annoyance. "you can't stop the way you feel for me, you love me. i know it" jd said to me and maybe he was right.

 i turned to face with to give him a talking too but he kissed me and like it or not.....i kissed back. i pulled away but he kissed me again. shoved him away only to pull him back for a kiss. his hands ran up my back and inner thighs i pulled away. "yeah we should stop, this is a lot for me. i don't think i can. lets just take it slow" he smirked and kissed me and next thing i know he's inside me and we're fucking on the kitchen counter. so much for taking it slow. but the thing is im fucking him back, i guess i can't stop the feeling. 

jd's pov:

i sat down next to her, she was invested into her little book, god she was so fucking cute. "hello my darling" i called her darling cause she was my darling. i started to kiss her neck and she shifted away. oh no she doesn't. i pulled her back, i went to kiss her but she pulled away and got up, why? why is she always avoiding me? "don't touch me" i couldn't help but laugh, she was really that blind? the oblivious? oh god i can't help but love her. "why are you laughing!?" she snapped at me "you can't run from the feeling" i told her. it was true, she couldn't. i ran my hand through my hair "oh yes i can! i feel nothing for you! you manipulated me to stay in this relationship!" she screamed at me, i didn't do anything. 

she couldn't leave me cause she loves me, even if she won't admit it. i just smirked. "you'd have to stop the world just to stop the feeling" i said to her. she did not like that. "there is no feeling dick nose!" i chuckled at her cute oblivious "you'll be back" i said to her and she gave me an "ugh" and walked over to the kitchen counter, resting her elbows on the counter with her head in her hands, god she's so hot and cute but she looks distressed. i don't blame her, i make my way over to her wanting to comfort her if she would let me.

 i wrapped my arms around her waist and kissed her neck trying to make her feel better but she sighed annoyed and groaned in annoyance, okay guess i wasn't helping. "you can't stop the way you feel for me, you love me. i know it" i said to her trying to convince her, maybe i got somewhere cause she turned to face me and i took the chance to kiss her. she pulled away but i kissed her again. she pushed me away only to pull me back in and kiss her, i was getting somewhere. my hands were traveling up her thighs then she stopped me "yeah we should stop, this is all lot for me. i don't think i can, lets take this slow." she said and i smirked knowing she was just trying to convince herself. and i was right, i was fucking her on the kitchen counter. she'll be mine forever no matter what. it was after we finished when she talked to talk. "so much for taking it slow. she said and i smirked "you don't have to lie to yourself that you don't love me, its a war you won't win"

y/n's pov:

"so much for taking it slow" i said, resting my head on my hand, he smirked. of course. "you don't have to lie to yourself that you don't love me, its a war you won't win" that made me want to punch him but i knew it was true, and that made me want to punch him more. he was right, i tried not to love him, literally after everything. but i still do, damn it, whats wrong with me? we can just be seventeen. but how? our school is burnt to the ground, by a certain someone. well i guess theres only one thing to ask. "i'll stay with, and love you....if"

jd's pov:

i could tell she was deep in thought, it was cute. i could watch her for hours just looking at that cute face of hers. but then she spoke up, "i'll stay with you" yes! "and love you" even better "if" oh shit. "you promise me we can just be seventeen. no more suicide, no more murder. no more lying. okay?" i can do that. nothing more, yeah of course. "of course my darling" i said so fucking happy i could die and cry and maybe both. i wrapped my arms around her and kissed her cheek. shes so fucking precious.