Thoughts

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by yanideva--

by yanideva--

I thought you'd love me in
a way i will genuinely feel it.

I thought we were going to build
a relationship so beautiful
that will make others want of what we have.
I wanted to prove that there can be the sort of love we just have heard but never seen.

I thought we'd build a beautiful home
wherein our kids will know warmth and love.
Not the conditional sort of love,
But the unconditional sort.

All of it seems dark now,
Maybe it's because I've lost most of my hope,
Maybe it's because I cannot find my courage to face you.

It's not that I'm scared of you
But, it's the fact that I don't want to hurt you.
I loved you so much to trust you blindly,
I still love you even when you are digging your fingers into my heart,
It's a pity that you can't feel it beating for you.
Maybe you just don't find me to be your person.

You making me feel miserable isn't my first time feeling miserable in my life.
Maybe,
If you treated me with concern and care,
That would have been my first time feeling my happiness.