─ Relight Love

5.

Nandini's Pov : 

" the idea of home for me, was him. "

I woke up after a good sleep, and it made me smile hard as I have finally slept at night after I don't know how long and this feels like an achievement. I looked beside me to find him sleeping looking so cute that I couldn't resist pulling his cheeks but fought it and went to the kitchen to make myself some black coffee. As I jungled through the kitchen doors and cabinets, all I found were tea leaves and not a jar of coffee, which amused me as I still remember he always used to drink black coffee and today it wasn't there. I shrugged my thoughts and decided to make him chai while I quickly took a coffee packet kept in my bag and made myself black coffee. As I stood waiting for it to be prepared, I realized how a few days back I was making my way through those files and papers and today I stood in the kitchen after so long. Things have changed a lot and it did scare me. I was scared, scared that this time I might lose the war I had been sacrificing everything to win. 

I stood overthinking when I felt a tug on my shirt and I was pushed away from the stove while he quickly closed the stove and moved towards me examining my hands if they had any kind of burn. It didn't thankfully and I felt him sighing as man finally took the breathe he was holding in. His eyes looked still sleepy while his mind wide awake as he hit my forehead saying 

" Dhyaan se, abhi lag jaati " his face held disbelief at my dumbness while I stared at him, my words slip as I bore my eyes in his

" Tu hai na " I freaking don't know how these words just slipped my tongue as we continue to stare each other but he broke it coughing a little as he focused on the tea and I cursed myself at my behavior. 

 I sat by the window, and wondered how close we are still so far. He sat on the dinning table reading newspaper and sipping his chai while I just sat drinking this bitter black coffee which I once hated but now is my comfort drink.

Things have changed, we have changed but I know he still exists between the silences of my thoughts. I miss him, I miss how we use to sit across each other sometimes in silences, sometimes in noise, sometimes loving, sometimes hating still with each other but today's silence was different. It wasn't peaceful but suffocating. You love me, I love you but these words fails to bind us and this hurts. 

I like to think that our story isn't over just yet, someday we will meet in some other universe and just do get it right, get us right. 

I quickly wiped my tears off putting on my fake smile when I saw him wrapping the newspaper up and moving towards me. 

"I'm getting ready for the office, you wanted to join so please be dressed on time. Mr. Rajvansh hates late comers. " He exclaimed as he looked at me as if trying to guess what I have been thinking but I quickly nodded and stood up to dress not asking too much. 

I got dressed in a white salwar suit and accessorized myself with some oxidized jewellery and quickly wore my slippers running outside as I heard his screams after every 2 second.

As I stepped outside I saw him looking at me or maybe gawking at me as he scanned me from up to down making me conscious while I quickly checked my face in my phone if there was something wrong. 

" You look so beautiful man " He almost screamed as he came towards me and twirled me twice thrice and finally leaving my hand as I stood still and once the smile that graced his face now was missing as he realized what he did, to not ruin the environment I ruffled his hair running