She's not you

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Luckily we woke up just after 2 hours which means our family had just woken up. We could go at palace in half an hour as there will be no traffic and somehow manage to hide.

We were both awake , I was laid on top of him. We both knew these moments won't last long. As I tried to wake up Arnav laid me back again. 

"Don't, please let me be with you for some more time , just one last time" , I could hear him sniff. Never in my lifetime did I imagine a man would cry for me. I swiped away his tears as he swiped mine. Also his morning voice was like music to my ears . He could've been my man . My mornings could've been the same but they won't belong to me. Our fate is decided by our family.

We both sat down.

"Arnav , I love you . Maybe not in this lifetime but I trust on god even after all of that , that in some timeline , in some universe we'll be happily married and will live a long life together." I said with hiccups in between as I continued crying .

"I'll love you in every life of mine Chhavi. I don't want this. This sucks. I hope my mom would understand. How much I regret not telling you this sooner. I should've said no that day and asked for your hand in marriage. I am too late . " Arnav replied.

"It's okay Arnav. What's done is past. Let's focus on our present. Now that we have decided this. It's time to let go of us. To end this here. Can I have one hug last time?", i asked with my eyes swollen.

Arnav grabbed me , i couldn't even breathe for a second. We cried a lot. It's ridiculous how we as adults can't make decisions for our life. Just because we belong to influential families. Even we would've been away from this all , I would've ran with him and kiss him so hard to claim him mine.

Arnav as if  he heard me or had exact same thought. Kissed me hard. But this kiss couldn't help us claim each other. We both were crying. It was painful. It was like being with a person but my heart hollow.

 I ,as a doctor always believed that romantic love and all don't really co relate with heartache .

How could hear skip a beat with love? His hug made me know it all.

 God really found a way to prove me wrong.

"SHE'S NOT YOU Chhavi, she's not you no one can replace you ! Chhavi no one can" , Arnav begged .

" My heart doesn't beat like it does with you. I don't want to dance happily around her. I can't speak shit in front her. I can't see myself with her. I am not comfortable around her. I don't want to see her making expression, I don't find her in a room of people, she might be the prettiest girl for everyone else but i cant find myself seeing any beauty in her , Chhavi she's not you. I need you . I want you "

"I want to fight for us Chhavi but I can't. I am a coward Chhavi a fucking coward . How can I fight my mom? How can I fight my parents? How can I fight my responsibilities? How can I fight the eldest son syndrome Chhavi?", Arnav was drenched in years. I hated the sight of it. But could i do anything?  Arnav said all of that in one breathe and again hugged me .


"You won't break Aaina' heart promise? Promise me Arnav come on", i said remembering babaji's wish. "Promise?", i asked with my pinky finger towards him.

Arnav hesitated but soon agreed "promise" holding mine with his.

His eyes had anger and helplessness. Mine reflected with love and goodbye.

"I love you , let's go and let go"I said

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"I love you , let's go and let go"I said

"Please leave me , go away", I said hugging him tighter. My actions not matching my words.

Eventually Arnav left while i cried aloud.

Soon I left in my car for palace as well.

We both were a mess and i didn't wanted to be caught.

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When I reached the palace I saw Aaina already talking to Arnav in the garden area. As I was approaching them i heard Arnav tell her he woke up early and was roaming around palace. I was stopped by Aaina when I tried to sneak.

" Good morning Chhavi , what are you doing outside?" Aaina asked. I couldn't look at Arnav. I mentally repeated again and again for the same. 

" I wanted to be alone for sometime , went for a early drive", i replied.

" Oh , what a coincidence you both seem to be outside early and yet none wanted my presence? Arnav I am your wife to be sir , don't forget that. And Chhavi you? Did you alienated me so soon? Only the date's been fixed " she laughed jokingly.

I tried to laugh and so did Arnav but both of us sounded really fake.

I ran inside. I couldn't stand there any longer.

I came inside to see decoration happening. Have the functions started already?

"Taiji what's the decor about?" , I asked as I saw the ladies instructing the helpers. Wedding planners? We don't believe in them.

" Engagement, tomorrow's engagement. How fast the days will go we won't even realise. Haldi, mehndi, Sangeet , and also that new kid's obsession wedding photoshoot and bachelorette all that drama", taiji was excited.

"Ofcourse behnji , and add jagran to the list. God's grace should be kept on my kids " Deepa aunty joined the conversation.

"Ji, they both look good together, made for one another " , I said looking at them from afar.

Taiji said we'll not realise the passing days but I could realise every moment that went on. How will I survive this?

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