IT'S been a month since then.
It's been a month since I moved here in Baguio to pursue college. This has been my dream since I was in my junior years, and now that I'm here, masaya naman. There were definitely times when I cried myself to sleep due to separation anxiety and homesickness. However, deep down, I knew this was what I needed: freedom, new experiences, and self-growth.
I should be happy now that I am living on my own.
I am supposed to be happy, right? I guess I am happy, am I really?
Ewan ko ba, hindi ko na dapat pa iniisip pero bakit ganun? May parte pa rin sa akin na naiwan sa mga oras na yun.
Alana Viell Montecarlo. What a beautiful name, right? Such a lovely name just like how lovely she is. She is just so wonderful and kind. A perfect girl for Reevo. No doubt she's his fiancé. His soon to be wife.
Paano ko nalaman? Pinakilala kasi siya sa amin ni kuya Reevo. And, when he was introducing ate Alana, I saw how smitten kuya Reevo was.
His eyes looking at hers.
"Bea?", tawag sa akin ng isa sa mga classmates ko.
"Oh! I'm sorry?"
"Uhm, we were just talking about if you're available tomorrow night to shoot our video presentation?"
Ah, oo nga pala, we have a group project sa subject na 'to to be submitted on Wednesday.
"Yes, of course." then I smiled.
Natapos ang araw ko sa school na lumulutang itong isip ko. Ganito pala feeling ng heartbroken, 'no?
My first heartbreak. I didn't think that this can really be that painful.
I am currently doing all my school works - essays, in particular, when my phone suddenly rang.
Guess who's on the caller id? Yep, my bestie.
I smiled instantly when I saw her face on the screen.
"You are so tagal naman answering your phone, B! Ang dami kong chika! Sobrang daming pogi here in UST!" sabay tili ni Hannah. Nagulat ako roon ha!
"Tili wasn't necessary, you know." We both laughed.
"So, tell me about it."
"Ayun, there are so many handsome rich boys here, I lost count! But, above all, you know who's my type?" Sinenyasan ko siyang ipagpatuloy ang kwento niya.
"My professor in Law 1! I just can't believe, he has it all. From brains to looks. I can't really focus during class. Ang yummy 'te!" Naku! Ayan na nga ang sinasabi ko.
"Oh my God, Hannah. You know, you can't." Umiiling iling na sabi ko.
"Try me." I can't help but laugh at her. Hindi ko alam kung nagbibiro ba siya o ano. But I know she won't do anything to upset her parents, I suppose. Takot mawalan ng cards 'to e.
I just hope so.
"At bakit ba kasi hindi ka na lang dito sa UST nag aral nang sa ganon e, we're together." Nakasimangot niyang sabi.
"I told you, nandito ang pangarap ko. Sana nga dito ka na lang din sa Baguio." Pero kung nandito ka for sure, pupunta ang kuya mo at malamang kasama ang mga barkada niya, makita ko pa siya.
"Ewan ko ba kela mom and dad, they wanted me to study in the same university they had gone to." Malungkot na litanya ni Hannah.
Actually, that's nice. Hindi ko na siya madalas na makikita and I'll probably forget my feelings for him, right?
Ngumiti na lang ako at nagpatuloy sa pagtatype.
"Don't worry, B! I can always go there naman." She winked at me.
"Ha? Yeah, su-sure!" I smiled weirdly.
"Gusto mo isama ko pa ang mga friends ni kuya? You know, para masaya! Makikita natin ang mga crush natin!"
"No!" Gulat kong sabi sa kanya. She was stunned.
"And why?" With her left eyebrow twitching.
"Ah, w-wala. I- I was just thinking if we could hangout na tayong dalawa lang. Wala tayong bantay, we could do whatever we want. Exciting, yes?" Sambit ko na naglagay ng mga ngiti sa kanyang mukha. Wohoo! Glad, I made an alibi that quick!
"Oh! You're right!" Ngisi naming dalawa.
We finally ended our call around 1am kung hindi ko pa sinabi na may pasok pa kami bukas. Ang ending, hindi ko rin natapos ang essay na ginagawa ko dahil sa chikahan to the max namin.
Pero kahit na ganon, I am very thankful for Hannah. She's my happy pill lalo pa't minsan madalas ako sumpongin ng anxiety.
And just as I was about to go to sleep, a notification suddenly appeared.
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