How am I suppose to break this down to Scott? It's not like he likes me. I'm just a assignment, and when Joe is done for good, won't he be gone like the others? To confusing, not trying to hurt nobody. Especially the person whose been there the most.
Today Scott had the day off of work and wanted to hang out, because we never had a chance to friends to friends. A beep of a horn from the outside, kissed
Eric goodbye and ran out to the car. Once in the car I give Scott a huge hug. But something felt off, the way he hugged back.
Looking him in the face I ask him whats wrong. "Let's run away. You and me. Forget about Joe and let's just leave. Leave everything here and we'll start over together. You and me."
He says, my mouth is hanging open. I have to tell him it be wrong if I kept it away, he'll be hurt even more. "Scott...that would be nice but what about Eric? And, and my life is here"
"What about Eric.... yes he is a friend but come on. I want to take care of you. Let's go now. You and me." I have to tell him, but I'm scared I'll lose him.
"Scott...there's somethin-"
"I'm in love with you. I'm in love with Alena Green. And I want to be there for you the right way, let's run away together and we both could start a life...togeth-"
"Me and Eric are in engage" I blurted out. I couldn't sit here and let him do this to himself. Let him pour his heart out to me, knowing I won't be able to do the same.
It's been quiet for too long, that it scared me. I had to break the silence. "Scott, don't let this ruin our friendship. Come on you knew we was messing around and it became
Serious. I just don't want to hurt you. Now that's not the way I wanted to tell you, but I couldn't let you get this idea of you and I." While I said this he reached over me and open my door.
"Get the hell out my car." He said, his hands gripped tight on the stirring wheel. I looked at him and slammed the door shut. "I'm not leaving...you knew this was going to happen."
"Why, why won't you just get out my car. I have to go to work." He says now staring out the window. "Because your my best friend. And I need you, I have no control of
My life. I'm a puppet and I need you to help me cut the strings off so I could live. On my own. Don't give up on me, just because of Eric. He asked me.
And when he did the first thing that came in my head was you. But I'm just you assignment, and when this case is over. Once Joe is done for good your going to be like the rest.
Gone." I said breathing hard. Looking out the window. "That's what you think? That I'm like the rest of the people you've dated or trusted? Get something from you, use you to get what I want and be gone?"
I look at him tears threaten to spill. "That's not what I meant. And you know that" I say angrily. "Oh yes it was...well let me tell you something.
I'm not them, I'm not going anywhere. Because I know deep down, deep down in you selfish, bitter heart you love me as much as I love you. Not as a friend but more than that.
How you desperately want me to touch you in places Joe, Adam, and Eric himself can't. And I'll be fighting for you, till that little heart of yours stop beating."
What he said was....all true. And it made me ache for him even more. But I have to stand my ground, I'm marrying Eric. And no one is going to stop me.
"Could we just go now? I'm hungry." I ask, because I'm done having this conversation with him. "Sure...but one more thing." I looked at him, crossed my arms. "What?"
"Do you love me?" And when I was going to open my mouth, it closed. I don't know what love is anymore. But there is something there.
"I care deeply for you."
"That's not what I asked you. Do you love me? It's a simple question"
I can't lie to him, or could I? "I love you like a friend. Like a brother" I say with a straight face.
"NOT as a friend. Do you love me. Just answer the question and we could leave. Not sure what to say, I stay silent. "Unbelievable" he mumbles.
Starting the car he drove off. Ten minutes later in the car his question still burns in my head. Do you love me? But I can't hurt Eric, what he doesn't know can't hurt...right?
"Yes" I whisper. He looks at me for a brief second and his eyes back on the road. "What?"
"Yes" I say so he could hear me. "Yes....I love you" facing the window, tears start to fall.
"That's what I thought." And we didn't say nothing till we got to our destination. What did I get myself into?
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She Must Suffer
AksiShe's scared she's going to die. Her husband keeps hitting her, and won't let her leave. She's trying to escape, but it never works. She must kill the man she loves to get away and have her life back. "Alena.....Alena answer me...." I stay quite be...
