I stare at the screen
my face is blank and my eyes are wet
I look at the many little red squares
so many notifications
but they're just streaks
I stare at the screen
thinking of a way to distract myself
I am hurt
I stare at the screen
the light blurs together and I stare.
I stare until the screen goes black
there I am.
In the reflection, I see myself
my hair is unkempt
my eyes are full of tears
but I set it down
I am no longer looking at the screen
my cat comes to lay with me
I thank God for everything he's done and is helping me through.
