The Twisted Fates | First Khaotung

A longing

In the evening, Khao is sitting in front of the laptop filling the forms. "I am not ready with the things yet Phi, with this little time, maybe I should try next year!" Khao pouts. First sighs and pulls a chair near him. "Khao you are already two years late. Kids your age are already in third year. It will be harder studying with your Juniors. Here, I'll try to help you. Let me see"

"Then....I'll go make coffee for you phi!" He stands up as First takes a hold of his laptop.

Khao comes back in few minutes but stops at the doorframe. He sees Second wearing glasses and looking at the screen. Looking at him, immediately a memory flashes in front of his eyes. "It was you?" He murmurs.

First's eyes widen as he swallows a lump formed in his throat. "This is it! Does he find out that I am not Second? How can I explain to him? Second is gonna be so mad! And Khaotung? He'll be devastated!" All the thoughts inside First's head, as he watches Khao walks closer to him. First tries to be calm as he focuses on the laptop screen instead of looking at him.

Khao comes even closer and points at his spectacles. "All this time, I thought it was all in my head. But Phi! you-"

Flashback - 2 years ago

First walks aimlessly on the busy streets of Bangkok. He sighs as he picks up the call.

"Where are you?? Still in Bangkok?" Namtan asks who is their cousin. Elder cousin sister to First with only whom First can open up about his twin brother that otherwise no-one knows about.

"hmm"

"What's the matter? Did Second do something again"

"Nothing. He just took the money and left. Didn't even bother to say anything or ask how I am."

"Well you guys just met some days ago...."

First knew that his relationship with his twin brother isn't great. But when Second had called First out of nowhere, just few days ago to meet and asked for the money as he found himself in budget crunch, First thought atleast while receiving the money, he'll speak something more with him. But he didn't talk anything else. He just reminded First that it's the share out of family money from his mother's part that he is borrowing and he'll return it all anyway.

"I feel so sad Namtan! I don't feel like coming home yet!"

"What do you wanna do?"

"I think I'm gonna let myself go tonight Jje! I don't want to think about anything tonight!"

"Ok, send me the address, I'll come over." Namtan immediately agrees as she knows how much First always has been a "good boy". He deserves a day off from all the "duties".

Since their childhood, Second always did what he wanted - not listening to their father, skipping school, drinking etc, Their father had put all his hopes and expectations on First. First always was caught in middle of all the fights, trying to maintain peace is the house. It wasn't his responsibility but that's the weight on his shoulder ever since their mom left.

Being "good boy" to calm his father that atleast one of his son is doing "ok" and there will be someone to look after their family business. Whenever he took father's side, his brother blamed him and vice a versa. So he stopped taking sides long ago. He'll only interfere if things go to the south. He was emotionally tired of his family drama. After the fights, Second at least got to get out of the house and do whatever he wants to let go of stress. But First had to stay in that toxic mansion and hear either his father cursing their mother and how her genes are the reason why Second is like the way he is or cry himself to sleep. Eventually when Second left the house, the fights stopped but the pressure increased. He has to be the "Good son" all the time.