TW: Anxiety Attacks
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WINTER'S POV:
I blinked awake slowly, my eyes felt as if they were glued together, I was so tired but I just couldn't go back to sleep. My arms are still wrapped around Autumn, her scent was comforting and rich.
Autumn stirred awake and turned over, still in my arms. "Good morning my love," I said to her in a soft tone, she gave me a reply and she curled up against my chest. I have never known Autumn to be so clingy and sweet, she has always been extremely stoic, cold and blunt, nobody could imagine her to be like this, she was so vulnerable and beautiful in my embrace.
I stroked her hair, it was long, soft and brunette, she has slight waves in her fine hair, Autumn is the girl for me, Autumn is mine. I slowly sit up against the bed frame and pull the sweet girl in between my legs, my arms now wrapped around her small waist, Autumn lifted her glasses onto her watercolour eyes as I kissed her head. How am I this lucky?
All of a sudden, I realise Autumn is just staring into the abyss, she almost looks like she has just been stabbed in the heart, "Darling, are you okay...?" I asked the angelic woman, she didn't utter a word and I realised what was happening. I climbed around to the front of her so that I was able to see her worried, anxious face "Darling, look at me. Everything is going to be okay, don't worry you can talk to me, what's going on my love?"
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AUTUMN'S POV:
As soon as Winter crawled around to the front of the bed to get a better glimpse of my face, I realised that he knew what was happening, the cycle of waking up every morning and wanting to cry out of pure anxiety was heartbreaking and to be truthful I just wanted to know that everything was going to be okay. Moments like this throw me back to the time I picked sport studies as a GCSE in year nine and the anxiousness would build up inside of me until one Monday morning, I just popped and physically could not do it anymore, I had to drop the subject due to the fact that whenever I went to school I felt like the only way out was to kill myself.
Winter was sat there comforting me, I was completely zoned out but I could feel my eyes watering slightly. I laid my head in his lap and curled up in a ball so that he couldn't tell that I was crying. I feel trapped in my own thoughts and I don't even know why. He stroked my head and shushed me, he knew I was crying from the moment that I started, Winter has always been there for me and I would forever appreciate him for that, even if we don't last together forever, I'm sure we will, I hope we will.
About half an hour later I calmed down, I don't know why it took me so long to shut up but I cannot bare the thought of Winter thinking that I was weak, I don't want to be weak, I want my reputation to proceed me and I feel like I cannot let my guard down. Ever. Winter is my love and nothing could ever change that, I don't care how much we may fight or argue in the future, it will never change how much I love him.
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OH I AM TREATING YOU GUYS TODAY YOU LUCKY THINGS.
Word Count: 606 :D
