When I first met you I fell in love. Your eyes glimmered and your hair shined, And I knew you were the one. When I was on the brick of death, Mind in a swirl, It bring me back to life and say i'm your beautiful girl. Now i'm crying In my room, Scared you're not okay. What should you wear here like next to me. My world and hurts. I need something to hurt bigger. The medication's not working. I needed to work quicker. It's almost our two months, And you still haven't called. And honestly I don't know why I bothered at all. Your friends hang up the phone when I need you the most. And all you're trying to do is be a good host. You filled my bucket up till it overflowed and spilled. He made my I love you so much. I would have killed.
You forced me to get better. And i'm grateful for it still. You arent here to stop me from downing another pill.
This isn't a fault, completely me. Please just don't leave me be. I'm scared of myself and what I can do. I know where the knifes are I know what I'll do. Put the s o s messages and calls for help we're ignored. You're excuse was your friends were douchebags. Still saying I'll answer next time. My phone will be with me. You could have lost me that day and you didn't even know. The only thing that kept me there What's the hope you would show. You forgot our anniversary. And my favorite things to do. You blew me off your friends. Just so out of the blue.
I don't know what I will do. I'll figure it out i'm sure. Until you show me that you Haven't changed for the worst. I'm thankful for the man you were.
