I thought it was funny.
I thought it was funny when you said that it was forever
When I knew it wouldn't be true.
I thought it was funny when you told me that I was pretty. First time hearing that in a while.
It just came out so out of the blue.
I thought it was funny when I started smiling when I got your texts.
It gave me a lot of time to reflect.
Sometimes, I need time to process what happened.
And I feel uneasy thinking about it
My mind starts running wild, and my heart beats fast. I feel like it's the end. Because I never thought of life without you. I know I will be fine eventually
It'll take time. But I'll get there. One part of me wants to beg you for forgiveness. So, whatever I did to make you do this to me.
The other part of me wants to spit in your face and never want to see you again.
One Part of me wishes you would come back.
The other part of me can't stand to look at photos if you anymore.
I wanted you.
I do still want you
I want the boy I met and fell in love with
Not this. This is confusing. Hot and cold. Nauseating. Heartbreaking. I didn't want it to be gone.
It is.
I guess I'll live. I wish I could have lived it with you.
