Lonely

Chapter2

GIDEON'S POV

As I get in the classroom I scan the whole room for her, it has been long since I had felt a certain way for a woman. I hate how women disregard men's feelings in most situations and that's what made me not even think about them. But this one in particular was worth it and plus I'm tired of being alone

As I continue scanning for her the teacher spoke, I couldn't quit hear what she was saying, not until she called out her name. Mia López the girl that I wish for but scared to even look at. What I have for her is forbidden and wrong. I am to dangerous for her but everytime I try to stay away I get drawn back to her. She's my safe place, my peace and my drug, my very addicting drug

After school she walked home as always. I followed behind, carefully and slowly. She made it a little hard since she walks very fast, she has her headphones on that means she couldn't hear me behind her...which is good for me

She gets home and locks all the doors and windows and closes the curtains as she always does. Her living alone at 17 is concerning to me I get that her aunt doesn't want anything to do with her but what I have realized is that this neighborhood isn't really safe. The things I have seen happen here at night are very horrific

As I watch her cooking something that looks like chicken. She proceeded to eating while watching TV, I couldn't quit see what she was watching on the TV because it was blurry. When she was done eating she washed the dishes while humming a song and it sounded kind of good and refreshing to the ear. I have a strong sense of hearing and smell so at some point I don't need to follow her to the next room to know what she's doing. She walks to the piano, I have seen her do this a lot of times before, she would just sit in front of the piano and not even play a single note, she brush the dust off and stare blankly at it. I get that she is very hesitant because she use to play it with her late father but now she hated the sight of it

Finally my favorite part of stalking her has come, she brushed her teeth and changed to her night wear before switching off the lights and getting into bed. I wait a few minutes before climbing in from her bedroom window and start to look at her. This is the only time I could carefully examine her and look at her for hours on end. I walk around her room, I see pictures of her and her parents. Posters of her favorite singers and authors

I walk to her bathroom and look around. It was dark since the lights were off, but I could still see some what clearly. I walk around, basically exploring. This isn't really the first time I have been here and it might sound creepy but I also don't know why I do this. Maybe it just gives me a sense of comfort...just being close to her is what I mean

I touch her tooth brush. It needs to be replaced, not that it isn't in perfect working condition it is, just that she use to replace it every 3 months but now it's over 4. I get out the bathroom and walk downstairs, I walk to the living room, the TV was off but she was watching Pride and Prejudice. It's a very nice film, which I could see that she liked because she has read the book

Me and Mia have similar back stories but different. She lost her parents in a car crash but mine left me after finding out what I was. Years later I find out that they died. My father from a sickness, my mother from a overdose, my younger sister from old age and older sister from depression apparently

I hated all of them for leaving me, but I also don't blam them entirely because of what I am I can't have specific things, a normal life, I can't go out in public often because I'm sacred that I might loose control, I can't eat, sleep, go in the sun without a pendant that protects me from it burning me. When I don't wear the pendant I get burned really badly but I don't die it just takes a while to heal

I have this ability to see what happened in one's past by just holding something they own. I remember the first time I came here and I touched the piano. I saw her growing up, her happy memories and happy moments with her loving parents. The memories of her past made me feel envoys that she had something I wish for, but sad that she ended up losing it

I have thought about play it but never did it because I'm afraid of waking her up. I can play various instruments including the piano because I had a lot of time to learn and I mean a lot. I first met Mia at the hospital when I went there to check on my younger sister who now looked like my grandmother which I find sad, I was very close to her. Mia was laying on the hospital bed and just staring blankly at the ceiling with dried tears on her face

That is when I fell, I know it's a wired situation but I fell for her in our most vulnerable time, we both experienced loss.I lost two sister and two parents while she lost two loving parents which makes her situation more sad than mine. My parents were there for me and my sisters but for the wrong reasons, to show that they are good enough to me parents or to seem perfect to the public

My older sister Arora was not a bad older sister yet not the best, she tried to be but she wasn't really there for us. She was either out with some guy or not really interested in spending time with us. Lilith my younger sister, she was the picture of innocents but her innocents was swept away when she found out what her older brother was. I felt devastated when she couldn't even look at me, that broke me and that's when I hated myself the most.