Rejects

6. Flashbacks

The boys were doing a Q&A sound check, I peeped out and could see them sat on the stage,

'Luke are you and Andy going to get engaged soon?' I heard a fan ask, fuck, I thought as I stumbled backwards, no no I crashed into things as i desperately ran toward a door, I needed fresh air

Once sound check was over Luke came to find me

'Andy' he said a sad look in his eyes

'Luke' I sighed. He had that tone, the tone that meant he knew I knew he knew 'we've talked about this' I whispered

'no we haven't' he mumbled looking at the ground 'i proposed a year ago and you said no'

'exactly'

'that's not talking about it Andy' he said putting his hands on my shoulders

'Luke' I said trying to pull away 'please' I ended up collapsing into his arms 'I want to spend the rest of my life with you I do' I mumbled into his chest 'i just don't see why I have to marry you for it to be serious, I don't want to get married and don't want kids' I saw the hurt flash through his eyes, of course Luke wants kids, family means everything to him, fuck.

When I think back over the last 6 years dating Luke, and the 10 years before that it makes sense to be with him forever. I travelled half way across the country to live with a girl I 3 years later walked in on sleeping with someone else, with nowhere else to go and not thinking straight I bought a £800 plane ticket and turned up at the boys show on the other side of the world

-flashback-

There were so many screaming crying girls outside the venue waiting to meet the boys I probably fit right in, except i wasn't screaming just crying, I heard someone shout that they could see Luke so I ran in that direction, pushing through people ignoring the dirty looks and comments, I got to a barrier and saw Luke just walking away

'l-Luke' I choked out, he turned around as if not believing what he heard, his eyes fell on mine

'fuck Andy' he rushed over, fans were trying to grab at him but he just wrapped his arms around me and pulled me over the barrier, carrying in bridal style to the van

After that twitter went mad, Luke had to talk about it in interviews, then came deciding what to do with me

In the van he listened to everything that had happened, and he held me, I cried so much I fell asleep in his arms.

When we got to the hotel he woke me up to walk in, the others were still bac at the venue so the driver had to go back with the van

'sot out here with me' I said pointing at a bit of wall overlooking the city, the hotel was slightly higher Than the rest giving us a perfect view 'it's beautiful' I said

'yeah It is' he muttered, I could feel his eyes on me so I turned to look at him, he started to lean in

My mind was screaming at me, he was my best friend, I'd been dating a girl for 4 years, I didn't even know he felt this way about me

But then he kissed me and everything went quiet, everything felt right, and every kiss since has done the same thing. Love is just friendship on fire