True love never dies

Chapter 10 Rachel's past

ok so this chapter will just be rachel, purely to tell you the story of her past 

Rachel 

Sitting waiting to see the therapist was taking forever, tick tock tick tock goes the clock, i must of counted it 50 times before i was told to go through

"good morning you must be rachel" mrs brindley said 

"yes i am and you must be mrs brindley" i said smiling 

"call me elle, sounds a little better plus i am not an old person" she smiled and she wasn't she must be late 20's younger than me, easier to control. 

"know tell me about your past" she said once we had sat down and had cups of tea made up.

"my past, well here we go" i said and it was as if i was thrown right back there 

-----flashback 1993 ----

i was 15 years old, i thought i had the world at my feet, most popular girl in school dating the most popular boy in school, know i find myself pregnant, he hated me, everyone hated me, my parents, my friends everyone, so i had the baby aborted in order for it to go away, selfish i know but it had to be done, who knew this would be the beginning of the end.

Fast forward 2 years later and all i did was drink and smoke weed, i didn't care about my appearence, people looked down on me, except my new friends, they didn't care, well i hope they didn't care, it got worse though, the arguments with my parents, the fights at school and even almost being expelled, you would never know i used to be popular and pretty, know i look disgusting and slept with guys more than double my age, i got money for it, so why would i care. 

Until one day i was on the corner street and saw this boy about my age, i was cowering in the corner. 

"are you ok" he asked

"yeah am fine" i said quietly

"you don't look it, here have £20" he said "i hope it gets better, your worth more than that" he added and then he left, back then i didn't know it was paul, he made me see that something wasn't right because soon after i had a major breakdown, screaming, trashing my room, and then i hit my mum, the one person in the world i vowed never to touch like that.

So they sent me away to a retreat they called it but it had so many rules, group sessions and one on one sessions and i learned i was bi-polar my mood swings, major highs and major lows, it finally made sense to me. 

End FLASHBACK-------------

"then i got on with my life, got better, joined a band and now am here" i said finishing

"its like your telling it as a story, rachel what you have been through is awful but i need to make sure your ok and not having a relapse," Elle said smiling warmly.

"sure, what else do you want to know" i asked 

"well this boy, you said you know him well know, does he know that was you" she asked 

"No and he never will, he can't find out" i said 

" ok, but what about your friends." she continued 

"tina knows, she's great about" i said smiling warmly "The others wont understand" i added quickly" 

"maybe you should tell them, what about your family" she asked 

"No, they dont care" i snapped "this is stupid am leaving i said getting up and going.