percabeth X solangelo oneshots

solangelo oneshot #1.3

Nico pov

Three weeks. Three weeks since my last proper conversation with anyone. Three weeks since I realized Jason had-since jason-since he. Three weeks since last had a prope meal. Three weeks since I got out of my cabin.

"Three weeks"

Will told me as he led me to the dining Pavillion. "You haven't eaten in Three weeks " I don't respond. These last three weeks I have done nothing but tried to reach out to Jason. Nothing. I got no return.i tried dreaming about him. Nada. I just couldn't believe it... he can't be gone.he just can't be dead. No. No.no.

more than half of those 3 weeks was a repetitive of these thoughts and even though will was both a Physical and mental medic, even though we had been dating for 5 months now, I didn't tell him any of this. Though I knew that he knew.

"Nico?" Will asked and I look at him. "Hmm? " "talk to me. Nico say something " I knew I should say some snake comment or a sarcastic remark but I look at him. He is so kind. How can I be so rude. "I'm sorry" I say "I don'tneed your apology nico, I need you to talk to me. Tell me. It's not like someone died.."He clasps his mouth, his tone had a tinge of pain and desperation. "Oh no, I'm so sorry "will says his voice deranged.

"No will. It I exactly like that. It is exactly like that. Someone has died. Someone close to me has died. I can't bring myself to accept that and I don't want you forcing me to." I say my voice now angry.

" yes. Yes. Jason died. But he died for you. He died so we can stand here now. He died so you can live. Not so you can waste your life, nico listen to me. Jason. Is. Dead. It's hard to accept but it is true. You have been grieving for 3 weeks nico. "
Jason.is.dead
Jason.is.dead

Those 3 words hit me like a truck on a highway. I look at will. I can see those times again. Memories of Jason protecting me. Accepting me for me. Keeping my secret. Trusting me. All of those times come back to me. Then the most recent ones.
I'm so sorry nico, I am so so sorry.
Jason. Is. Dead.
Jason. Is. Dead.

I can feel tears filling my eyes. I look straight at will. How could he be so blunt? How could he? He touched my hair and hugged me He started to say something but I pulled away. I tuned around and ran. I ran all the way to my cabin. I ran inside and banged the door shut. I didn't care enough to lock it. I crashed on the wall just beside my door and looked around

Jason. Is . Dead
I'm sorry nico
I trust you
You are not messed up
I accept you
I am always there for you
Jason. Is dead
Dead
Dead
Dead
Dead
No
Nono he can't be
Jason. Is. Dead.

I don't hold it in anymore. Hades had once said the hardest part of death is acceptance for others. In this moment I had accepted and that felt like a rock was hurled at my head. Jason had died.

I cried. I rarely do but this time I didn't care. I was on the floor and the tears finally left my eyes. It felt horrible. I'd rather face cupid again than go through the pain of accepting it. I had gone through it once for Bianca but now it seemed to hit even harder.

I was crying. Hot tears poured down my cold cheek. My small body shivered with grief and my thoughts left with the drops.

Will was knocking the door. He waited for gods know how long but then he just opened the gate to find me sprawled on the floor broken to pieces, vulnerable, exposed. Alone. I looked at him and our eyes met. He looked at me for a moment before I couldn't keep his gaze I let them fall again.

I was shaking with grief. Tears so hot so sad so unfamiliar to my face poured down. Will sat down next to me. "Jason is dead will. Jason is dead" I say it out loud for the first time as he wraps his arms around me and I hug back. Just hearing those words made another flood of memories in my head causing the tears to fall harder.