BlueMoon (TSAMS AU)

☆.●Panic is Rising●.☆

《TW: Panic attack/separation anxiety》

I was all alone.

He was gone for a while now, and I was getting a fuzzy icky feeling inside. I didn't know why. I didn't like this feeling - not one bit. Why was I feeling it? God. It was quiet- too quiet...

I felt off. No one was here. Just me. Nothing but silence. It was getting hard to breathe. My legs suddenly gave out, and I fell to the ground. I sat there on my knees, my hands on my chest trying ever so desperately to breathe. I started to tear up. I had no one beside me, no one to be there for me.

I started to cry, breathing heavily, as oil dripped from my eyes non-stop. Suddenly, I felt a hand on my shoulder, shaking me rapidly.

"Blue! Are you ok? What wrong!?" I looked up. It was Moon. I got up and hugged him tightly. He flinched and then hugged me back. "Blue, what's wrong?" I couldn't speak. I was crying too much, and I still couldn't breathe well. He held me tightly, and I started breathing slower, calming down.

"I..." I started, trying to speak. "I don't know what happened.... when you left, I felt so alone. I-I don't know what happened... I don't want to be alone - not again!" Moon looked down at me and placed his hand on the back of my head. "Shh... it's ok. I'm here now. And so is Sun." I stopped crying a bit more and looked up at Sun. He seemed worried, but when he noticed me looking at him, he looked away, angry again.

"Sun, I'm sorry for charging at you... I couldn't control myself earlier. Please, forgive me..." I said that while getting out of the hug, and I advanced toward Sun. Sun just looked at me. "You couldn't control your own body? Likely story. You're just tricking us all, like Eclipse told you to." I started tearing up again. "Please, believe me! I wasn't in control - I don't know why -" suddenly, I was cut off by Moon. "Sun, what did we just talk about? She is not Eclipse. She is not tricking us. She is just lost right now in her purpose."

That was true... should I trick them or help them? Father said to trick them. That's what I was made to do! All I was made to do... but Father didn't like me. And besides, Moon helped me. And his brother, Sun, is just worried I'm like Father.

Moon picked me up suddenly, making me blush. "Sun, just be nice to her!" Sun stepped toward us. "No! Why should I? She was made by Eclipse, Moon. ECLIPSE!" Moon started to walk off, ignoring Sun. "HEY! DONT JUST WALK AWAY! MOON!" Moon looked down at me. "Let's get you a room. Don't listen to Sun. Hes... He's not too happy right now, as you can see." I simply nodded, still shocked from him carrying me. Do I seriously have a crush on him? No way....

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We eventually reached a spare room, neatly decorated with moon string lights and blue walls. The floor was a darker blue, and the bed was light blue with sky blue pillows. "This was the spare room, but you can use it. I decorated it earlier when talking to Sun. Hope you like it!" He said that while putting me down. Wow, this room was truly incredible! "This is amazing! Thank you, Moon!" I immediately jumped on the bed. Then, to my left, I noticed a big desk with- no way. "ART SUPPLIES!?"

I jumped off the bed and sat in the chair by the desk. "I see you like art." Moon said, laughing a bit. I nodded, then grabbed black paper and neon markers. "I am very good at art! It's in my programming! Maybe to help with the kids? Oh, I don't know, but I absolutely ADORE art!!"

I started to draw Sun with neon markers flawlessly on the piece of paper. "Done!" Moon looked surprised."How on Earth are you already done!? It looks so good!" I handed him the drawing. "Could you give this to Sun for me? As an apology for earlier?" He nodded. "Uhm- sure." He went off. I didn't care that I was alone. I continued to draw, and I felt like I was surrounded by many friends. Art helped me calm down, and I learned.

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I soon hung my art on the walls around me, then climbed into my bed and went to sleep.

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