It's to much pain (RINNEY TBP)

I think Robin rejected me.

Finney pov:

It was Sunday now and Robin asked me to come over to his house to watch a movie.

Dad said I could go it was currently 11am I got out of bed and got ready to walk to Robin's house.
I decided to wear a black t shirt and some dark blue baggy jeans.

I brushed my hair and got stuck with the brush in my fluffy curls.

After about 2 minutes and Gwen's help my curls were brushed.

I grabbed my bag for the sleepover and left.
I was almost at robins house and on my way to his house I decided I'm gonna tell him how I fell today.
I knocked on his door his mom opened the door.

„Robin come down here please finney is here."
His mom yelled upstairs he walked out of his room and down the stairs.

„Hi finn" Robin said and hugged me then quickly pulling away.

„Were gonna watch a Movie in my room."
He said as he grabbed my hand and walked upstairs with me.

We decided to watch Texas chainsaw massacre it was currently 3pm bacause I was under the shower for an hour.

As a jumpscare popped up I jumped back he grabbed my hand for comfort.

As the Movie was over we talked about anything.
„Robin I have to tell you something."

„Go ahead." he said

I nodded.

„I have a crush on you"

His eyes went wide and I just covered it up with a smile.

„it's fine I know it's disgusting liking a boy I know I'm a fag I'm sorry I leave."

„No it's not like that." Robin said.

„It's fine we don't have to stay friends."

I said taking the bracelet of we had with Donna since we were children.

„Finney I just I don't I-„

„ I know I'm a faggot" I said.

Turning back from him.
And ran down the stairs.

His mom was almost Done with dinner and his uncle was waiting at the table.

I walked in the kitchen Robin ran after me.

„Finn wait I-„

His mom and uncle looking at us.

„It's Finney!" I said as I put my shoes on grabbed my bag and walked out of the door it was heavily raining and I haven't brought a jacket.

I walked home Gwen opened and I fell into her arms.
„Wow what happend!?" Gwen asked in shock.

She helped me walk to the couch and sat down with me dad was also sitting there watching TV then looking at me.

„So-so I confessed to Robin and I didn't even let him talk after he looked at me with disgust"

„Oh finney I'm here for you" „you will find someone better." dad said I nodded and went to my room.
I pulled out my diary

I Fucked up.
I confessed to Robin.
After he looked at me with disgust I grabbed
My stuff and ran away.
I also gave him the friendship bracelet.
Should I talk to him on Monday.
No that would be wrong.
What if he hates me now.
Or is disgusted or disappointed.
I made a huge mistake falling for my bestfriend.
I didn't even let him talk I just ran.
I can't do this I can't talk to him.
I just wanna leave and not be here.

I closed my diary and walked to the bathroom.
As I washed my body the scars from yesterday started to burn.

But I was used to the pain by now.
I got out of the shower and wrapped myself into a towel.

I walked to my room and layed down staring at the ceiling.

I heard a knock on my door.

„You okay Finn?" Gwen asked I nodded.

„I'm sorry you will find someone else."
I hugged her quickly.

„I love you you know that?" I asked.

„I love you too." Gwen said smiling.

She left my room and just closed my eyes slowly thrifting of.

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