Whispers Of Destiny - J.JK

𝐄𝐲𝐞 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐢𝐧𝐠

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I walked into the garden of the hotel, I walked with my cell phone and a pack of cigarettes in my hand. The garden was really big and beautiful with tons of flowers planted around the perimeter.

There was a huge fountain in the middle of the garden and it was lit up with different colours. It had a fence around it so that people couldn't touch it or go too close to it.

The fountain made the garden look so much more aesthetic. It was about 11:50 at night and the sky was pretty clear today. This allowed me to see the stars and the moon, which added to the beauty of the night.

I walked along the path and came closer to the fountain. The lights were now reflecting on my face, making my face glow. I smiled and walked around the fountain.

I wished the fence wasn't there because I had the urge to touch the water flowing down the fountain. I put my hands on the fence and leaned forward a little to get a closer look.

I smiled as a few drops of water fell on my face and clothes. I sighed and straightened up with my hands still on the fence.

I looked down at the pack of cigarettes in my hand and bit my lower lip as I considered my decision.

My brain kept telling me to just take out a cigarette, light it up and take a few puffs, but then I would remember what I told Jimin and it would hurt my heart. I'm so close to breaking my promise.

I felt so bad when I closed my eyes and opened the pack of cigarettes. I pulled out a stick and took the lighter out of my pocket. Sighing, I lit the stick and watched it burn for a while.

I pocketed the pack and brought the cigarette up to my lips before taking a long drag. I opened my mouth and let the smoke out as I watched it disappear into the air.

I nibbled at my lip again before bringing the cigarette in between my lips again but this time, before I could take a drag and a very familiar voice stopped me.

"You smoke? Ms. Park?"

My heartbeat quickened and I turned around at the speed of light. There he stood, a few steps away from me with his hands in his pockets. My new friend, Jeon Jungkook.

He had a frown on his face, maybe he was wondering why I was smoking because I sure as hell don't look like someone who'd smoke.

"Sometimes, yeah!" I muttered, loud enough for him to hear.

He walked up to me and I noticed his hair was slightly damp. Looks like he just had a good shower. He came and stood right next to me, leaning his back against the fence.

We were both facing away from the fountain with our backs against the fence. I sighed and brought the cigarette back to my lips and took another drag.

"You shouldn't smoke. It's not good for your health." He said and I immediately scoffed.

Not good for my health? Yeah, right!

"I'm aware of that."

I sighed again and rested my elbows on the fence behind me as well as I dropped the cigarette on the ground. I threw my head back and looked up at the sky, at the shining stars and the enchanting moon.

After a few minutes he said again,"Why do you smoke?"

"I just do." I replied briefly, still keeping my attention on the beauty above us.

"Everyone who smokes does it for a reason. I wonder what your reason is?"

Well, that got my attention immediately. I turned my head towards him and looked straight into his eyes. He was already staring at me with his curious eyes, as if he knew something about me.

I can't believe I'm having a real conversation with a person I just became friends with a few hours ago. The way he is talking now, I wonder if he is the same person who was arrogant before.

Maybe, he's bipolar.

"How can you be so sure that I have a reason?" I asked him.

"Let me tell you a secret, I am good at reading eyes and yours tell me you have a pretty good reason." My breath hitched at his words and I immediately broke the eye contact.

Can he stop talking like he knows everything about me!?

I pushed myself away from the fence and stood in front of him. He did the same and put his hands back in his pockets.

He looks stunning right now.

The oversized black shirt and baggy track pants really suit him. The moonlight falling directly on his face only enhanced his beauty.

"Don't read my eyes. They won't give you a reason because there is none." I lied because I have a reason that I am not yet ready to accept myself.

"Your eyes do tell me something, Vivianna."

It was the first time he had used my name without a courtesy title and my heart pounded in my chest. I curl my lips into a thin smile.

"Good night, Jungkook. I'll see you tomorrow?" I said because I just wanted to end this conversation as soon as possible. I really don't want him to ask me any more questions.

He nodded his head in response and I turned and walked away. I could still feel his gaze on my back, but I decided to ignore it for now.

I can't believe that someone who just met me this morning could suddenly distract me from my thoughts that have been haunting me.

I actually dropped the cigarette, somewhere in between the conversation.

I smiled and opened the door to my room. I left my phone and the pack of cigarettes on the nightstand before entering the bathroom to do my nightly routine.

I tied my hair into a low ponytail and reached for my toothbrush when I suddenly felt nauseous. I held the palm of my hand over my mouth as I felt like throwing up.

I ran to the sink and started throwing up. My throat was burning and my eyes were watering because I felt so vulnerable.

This wasn't supposed to happen.

I opened the water and rinsed my mouth thoroughly before grabbing the towel and wiping my face with it. I looked up at myself in the mirror and my God, I looked terrible.

I don't even look like myself, right now.

I could see faint dark circles under my red, teary eyes. My mascara was all over my face and my nose was red too. I was breathing heavily because of throwing up.

I have to wash my face again.

I closed my eyes and exhaled loudly before muttering to myself.

"And I need to take my meds."

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I'm not very satisfied with this chapter but I promise the next one will be better:)
Lilac♡