~ titans touch ~ konig x male reader

feelings pt.2

A/n: just to make it more sad SH warning!!

Konig pov :

Once again y/n fell asleep while in the helicopter, in the uncomfortable position again. And once again i pulled his head back and rested on my arm , but this til i wrapped my arm around him into a side hug and lent him up against me. I saw paris glaring at him and me. I dont understand what her problem is now, i dont know if Shes homophobic or likes me but either way i dont care. It took nearly 2 hours to get to the estate. As we landed i woke up y/n and he quickly rubbed his eyes and grabbed his gun. Cpt price stood outside the helicopter " i want everyone split up into teams and to search every building , me , soap , ghost and y/n grouped up and snuck into the closest building first , clearing all the rooms and securing the building , we moved to the next one , doing the same again but in the process i got a small injuring , y/n seem scared when i said i did , it was a small cut from an enemy. We moved onto the third house we were clearing room after room until soap got injured. He was shot in the shoulder, he carried on fighting til it got too much " this is soap ive been shot " he said over the radio " soap are you okay , where are you " i heard y/n frantically say " i should be fine y/n , ive been shot in the shoulder " He said calmly but i could hear the pain in his voice " jhonny get back to the exfil " ghost stated, " where are you " i muttered, " keep going and i should be alright with making my way back to the helicopter " he said while whimpering from pain . I found y/n and as i got closer i could hear him quietly chocking and sobbing . I walked ip behind him and recived a punch in the side " im so sorry konig , i thought you were a cartle member" he giggled, which made me smile , y/n could make any situation beter with his pretty smile and laugh. " lets go " i whispered while clearing the rest of the building with y/n and ghost , there was no sogn of rhe leader so far " this is gaz and i ve got eyes on target. Im in the main house on the 4th floor , room 56 " gaz whispered "right, everyone rally to kyles location" cpt price ordered. " come on you two " ghost said tapping y/ns back. We followed ghost to gazs location. Cpt price snuck behinf the leader , me and y/n took the gaurds around the leader as we did cpt price dropped the leader to floor , and handcuffed him. As price got the leader back on his feet to rake him to the exfil the building started roaring in flames . I dragged y/n bu the wrist out of the building and making sure he was untouched , he was covered in smoke and soot , parts of our clothes had holes burnt into them everyone got out safely and mostly untouched. " everyone to the exfils " price shouted . Y/n ran like his life depended on it to find soap . He wasnt at the exfils " where is soap , where is my brother " y/n screamed down the radio , tears brimming his eyes . I hate seeing him an upset state " we have him in the helicopter taking him to base for treatment private y/n " i heard , i could hear the helicopter in the background must of been a pilot. " y/n i should be fine , okay please calm down" soaps voice sounded low and empty. We all rushed into the exfils , price having hold of the prisoner . And the helicopter fired up , i looked at him to see his leg shaking and hands shaking , i grabbed his hand and rubbed my thumb on his top of his hand , attempting to give him comfort, i surprised myself with my own actions. After nearly two hours we landed back at base , y/n ripped his hand out of my grip , grabbed his gun and rushed out the helicopter i was guessing he headed straight to medical. I saw ghost follow in his footsteps . I went back to my room to change and shower to get the smell of burnt off me. After my shower i got out and opened the bathroom door to see y/n on his bed , his eyes were blood shot and his sleeves bloody i couldnt tell if this was because of the mission or if he self harmed , " why dont you shower and try to relax " he got up and walked into the bathroom, i heard the shower turn on . I changed and waited for the pretty boy to get out the shower. He walked out in just a towel , i could see his perfect figure and his skin looks so beautiful and soft but what i noticed was the fresh cuts left on his arm . He noticed me staring at him and coved his arm " what " he sounded irritated " nothing but what did you do to your arm" i said curious of the reason behind it , he put his clothes on and slumped on to his bed " i feel like im always failing , on my first mission i end up injured and now my brother . What if enxt time its you or someone close ?" He said , he seemed like he was all of tears and now just an empty shell. " this has happened to every Solider süßer Junge , if you ask any solider i bet you on there first mission someone died or they got injured and like you said it was your first mission and your still alive which is the most important thing " i said attempting to comfort him or make him less worried " anyway what his the nurses say about soap situation " i asked curious, as i did i moved over to the upset boys bed and slumped next to him , placing my hand on his " they said he will need surgery to remove the bullet but he should be fine since the bullet didn't hit anything important, but he his shoulder might be weaker then the other " he muttered , his mood seemed better because of the good news " thank you for being here for me konig" y/n whispered in my ear  , his eyes looked into mine, i felt my face heat up. I could look at his pretty face all day, every day, " im going to go check on soap again" he said abruptly "alright see you later " he got up and left , and so did i . I was planning on finding horangi , i found him in the lounge area , thankfully he was on his own " i cant do it " i said " do what ?" "Confess" i whispered "he is so upset and soap and being a failure even though i think hes done amazing in his first 3 weeks and i cant find a right time to do it " " we have a few days of  no training coming up soon hopefully if no missions pop up, so why dont you ask him to go to the nearest town with you and you can do some shopping and get something to watch and see if thats a good time ?" Horangi was right " thanks for the idea " we stayed and chatted for a bit before we realised the time . Horangi headed to bed and i walked to medical to see if y/n was still there with soap . And he was he was curled up on a chair next to soaps bed . I walked over to him and picked him up bridal style and started carrying him to our room . As i was walking with him  ghost saw me" what are you doing konig" ghost asked " sorry LT i know its past curfew but y/n wasnt in bed so i checked medical and he was asleep next to his brother so im taking him back to his room " i rambled while looking at y/n sleeping face " alright off you go then" ghost said while giving me a tap on the shoulder . As i was picked up my paced y/n grabbed onto my shirt and nuzzled into my shoulder . This was the cutest thing ever, i finally got to his bed and attempted to place him under the cover without waking him. He wouldnt let go of me "noo dont leave please" he muttered i couldnt tell if y/n was asleep still or awake but i keptnon tryingnto put him in his bed and walk away, i was scared someone might come in our room and seem up cuddled up, but he wasnt having a bar of it and was full on gabbing my shirt . So in the end i lead down on his bed and he curled himself into me , i slowly pulled the cover up and over him and myself i rested my arm over his waist and drifted off....