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It's been a week since the whole selection of fiasco has ended in school, and life there is amazing. However, things at home are not so great.
A few days ago was my dad's birthday. I bought him a great watch as a gift, but he didn't pay any attention to me. He also didn't open the gift I gave him, although he appreciated the gifts my siblings, Bhai and Nia, gave him.
My relationship with my family feels like Missy's in Young Sheldon - feeling less important and neglected. The difference is that she was a girl, and I am a boy.
Nia is my dad's princess, and Bhai is my mom's favourite Whenever they have a problem, they go to them. I don't know who I should go to or talk to about my problems.
Mihir is there for me, but I can't always burden him with my problems. There are times when I just want my parents to comfort and guide me, but that never happens no matter what.
There has always been a quiet tension between my dad and me since middle school, which marked the beginning of my academic struggles. I never seemed to understand anything, and the constant comparisons to my siblings in academics, sports, and extracurricular activities left me disheartened.
I always felt like I didn't quite fit in and became insecure about even the simplest things in my everyday life.
It's hard for me to admit, but I feel jealous when I see Nia and Rudra bhai bonding and sharing secrets. I know it's not right, but I can't help feeling this way. I'm not sure if they do it intentionally or unintentionally, but it hurts to see others have such strong relationships with their siblings.
I've thought about confronting them about this, but something always holds me back I guess I fear losing our relationship because no matter what I will always love them. Whenever I love someone I can't express the depth of my emotions, I will do anything for them if they just give me a chance to prove my love.
I was taking out my books to study, and suddenly my phone rang I looked towards it and saw she was calling me and unknowingly I smiled. RIA ❤️
(R as Adria and N as Nevan)
R - Hey, you are free right now
N - Yeah, I am free so tell me what's up
R - I was getting bored so thought I would talk to you
N - So tell me have you completed your homework
R - Ha ha very funny, but you know I read this book and it reminded me of you.
