I sometimes wish I could just forget about you. It's so hard when everything reminds me about you. You tell me you love me... but it's hard to believe anyone who says that nowadays. I get upset easily, jealous, hurt, and a bunch of other things that fuck up the time we spend together. I just wish you would show more emotions other than happy and concerned. You NEVER tell me if you're sad, or upset, or hurting. It makes me feel horrible, cause I feel like you think you can't tell me anything. If you told me you had a horrible disease, you should know I would stand by you. Yeah, I get it. We're young. Maybe we won't last forever. But the time we spend together feels amazing, and yet, I feel guilty everytime. You're just so... popular. Everyone loves you. I know so many people who have feelings for you. I just can't stand the thought of me ruining someone's chance with you. You're amazing and wonderful and everyone should have a boyfriend like you. I don't deserve any of the love you give me. But... I need you. It's weird to say and yeah, again, we are young. You make me want to forget everything and just melt into your kiss. But this... guilt I feel. The guilt of taking you away. The guilt of ruining all the times we see eachother. The jealousy. It's hard. And you never tell me if you're actually okay. Hey, I'm human too. I can handle emotions. If you need to scream, scream. Cry? My arms are there for comfort. Anger? Talk to me about it. Jealousy? Tell me. Please, don't put your emotions on mute. That just makes me feel like a monster when I'm the only one expressing my emotions. Please boy, help.
