16 ~ Zayn Malik

S E V E N T E E N

-1 Month Later-

I don't hang out with Zayn as much as that time when Perrie left. She gets in the way. We have another day off and we're ALL hanging out in the penthouse living room. "Let's go through the people we're going to invite." Said Perrie as she opened the notebook. Yup their wedding. I rolled my eyes. "Lou. Liam. Niall. Harry. Eris- Eris?" She asked looking up at Zayn. "Yes she's invited." He said. "But why?" She whined. "She's my best friend. She's invited." He said. "Ugh fine." She said.

-Week Later-

Like always, we're chilling in the living room expect for Zayn and Perrie. El and Soph left last week and I miss them so much. Zayn and Perrie walked in. Perrie had a smile, Zayn had a mixed emotion look. "We have something to tell you.." He said earning each of our attention. "I'm pregnant!" Said Perrie and my heart shattered. No one said anything. I stood up and walked out. This is too much for me. I'm glad no one followed me. Zayn knew where I was, no doubt, the roof. I took my phone out and went to my notes. I cried as I poured my heart out. I spent a couple hours out in the roof then when dinner came, I went to go eat by myself where I got hit in the face with more jealousy. A really old couple were out celebrating their 60th year anniversary. At 7, I went to the studio where I spent an hour trying to figure out the melodies plus another 2 hours for the beat. Plus another hour to record plus about 10 minutes to listen through them. I got back at midnight. I walked in and Zayn was sitting down. Only one awake.

"Where have you been?" He asked. "Out. Needed to clear my head." I said. "For 7 hours?" He questioned. "Zayn, I'm not in the mood and you're really starting to piss me off." I said. "I'm sorry. I was worried. You just walked out when we said the news." He said. "How did you want me to react? To squeal and jump and run up to Perrie and hug her? If that's what you had in mind, you're honestly full of shit." I said. "I didn't. I just thought you'd be happy for me." He said. "As much as I want to be, I cant control my feelings. Sorry." I said walking into my room.

-Next Day (Tuesday)-

"Hello Maryland!!" I said into the microphone. "I have 2 brand new songs for you! You are the first to hear it.. so I hope you guys like it." I said smiling. "So this first song is called Truth Is." (Alyssa Shouse) I said.

So many words I wish I could say

So many thoughts in my head

I wanna scream them all out to you

To make you understand

My head throws the yellow flag

Pushes me ten yard back

But my heart throws the red

Starts a war with my head

Truth is I want you to hold me every night

With you everything, feels so right

Truth is I could kiss you a million times

Couldn't stand to see you out, out of my life

Truth is I'd trade the world to have you as mine

Oooh I never planned to fall for you at all

Cause everytime I fall it all goes wrong

I may be way in over my head

But I know you'd be something I'd never regret

My hand throws the yellow flag

Pushes me ten yards back

But my heart throws the red

Starts a war with my head