White wolf || jk ff

*Chapter 8*

Y/n's POV:

I never thought I could feel this much pain and survive.

My whole body is trembling, and my soul is in pieces.

There is a huge hole in my heart, and I don't think I will ever be able to fix it.

My mate doesn't want me.

I am not good enough.

My brother thinks I am weak.

My mate rejected me.

He will have a new Luna, and I will have to look at them every day.

I don't know how I came home.

I don't remember the path.

Pain clouded my vision.

I left Jungkook and Taehyung in the forest, and I just started running away.

I couldn't go back to the cave.

I didn't want them to find it.

It would mean that I wouldn't be safe there anymore.

We always used masking spray before coming into the cave. But Taehyung and Jungkook came close to finding it.

I guess it was because of the mate bond. Jungkook could smell me better.

I started walking to my room. I shut the door and locked it. I didn't want to see my brother. I didn't want to talk to him. I wanted to be alone.

I lay on my bed and stared at the ceiling. I just wished I could feel numb. 

Not happy. 

I didn't think I would ever be happy again. 

The best I could have hoped for was numbness. 

Maybe I would be able to achieve that. 

Maybe the pain would burn through my body tonight, and in the morning, there would be nothing left but numbness. 

Like poison.

It burns, 

destroys, 

and leaves.

I heard my brother opening the back door and running upstairs. He tried to open my bedroom door.

"Y/n?" he called me. "kiddo, open the door, please."

I stayed silent. I didn't want to talk to him.

"little one, please." he said. "Let me explain."

There was nothing to explain. I was a weak, small she-wolf, who could never be good enough to be a Luna. Or Jungkook's mate.

Taehyung tried to talk to me a few more times, but he gave up when I refused to answer.
I heard him sigh and walk away.

I continued to stare at the ceiling. 

What a way to end a birthday. 

My day started full of excitement, love, and new beginnings, only to end in pain and misery. 

I never thought it would happen like this.

I stayed up all night staring at the ceiling and wishing the pain would go away. 

It sort of worked. By the time I was supposed to get up and go get breakfast, the pain was better and bearable.

Maybe I could tell that a small part of me was numb. 

That was a start.

*TIME SKIP*

I heard my brother wake up. He walked downstairs to the kitchen and started making breakfast.