MY TEMPTATION

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CHAPTER 11

Killian Lorenzo Volkov speaking

It's night now, I'm still by Stella my enemy. I got up and hour ago and she's still sleeping, I may have watched her sleep. What? Girls do it too.

A bitter taste is in my mouth though, looking at her I'm starting to realize I will never be the one for her.. She needs something who could give her everything and more, I can do that but I don't think she wants it from me.

That does make my heart break a little, even what Mads said isn't hurting much because I slept with Stella. I really don't care what Mads has to say , I like Stella no I love Stella. She's literally the one fucking good thing in my life and I messed it up before. But now I'm just trying to fix old pieces with new ones.

And I realized I'm crying again, I hate being weak. I hate being vulnerable. Ugh! Fuck!?
I wiped my tears before looking at her again, she's an angel to everyone even Mads but I want to ruin her and keep her for myself.

Like the crazy motherfucker I am, but then again her mom might kill me if I make her more like myself. I wished she could see how much I miss her and love her. I never love anyone before...not Ava.. the relationship didn't feel real because I forgot majority of it.

I kissed her on the forehead and her cheek and I left through her window and my phone in my hand. After successfully leaving her house I walked back home.

I think it's best I leave her that way, because right now I don't see myself as someone for her.

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I arrived at home and saw mom and Mads sitting on the couch waiting for me. I mean I knew this was going to happen I couldn't stay by Stella for too long anyway even though being with her has given me temporary peace.

Mads looks like she had been sobbing for like three hours and my mom concerned look is throwing me off. So I sit down on the couch.

And to be honest they decided to play silent library because no one speaks up and that's slowly pissing me off. Mom surprisingly speaks up.

" Mads apologize to your brother" our mother said looking at her.

" Mom I'm going to say this very respectfully but I don't want her apology because it's not going to fix anything" I said strangely calm.

" I wasn't going to anyway" Mads said rolling her eyes at me.

" I know you weren't but then again what you said hurt and I will be moving out" I said standing up.

Their eyes widen and mom stands up aswell , " What do you mean you're moving out? Where will you go? You can't stay by Stella forever" Mom said looking up at me.

"So while I was crying and worrying myself you were by my fucking bestfriend for a couple hours?" Mads said shouting.

" You shut up! That has nothing to do with you, plus she made me calm down otherwise I would of stayed here and destroy every fucking furniture in the house, I'm leaving because I'm just realizing I don't belong here" I said shouting aswell.

"I'm not staying by Stella I'm going by Dad" I said.

It was then silent because one my dad is literally the problem in our lives so the fact I might be going by him just feels like betrayal to them.

" Why? Why do you want to live with him?" Mom said as her eyes is starting to water.

" I don't belong here because I'm just a jerk and a pest to all of you no one likes me for who I am so thank you sis for telling me I ruin everything for myself because that's all I can do" I said looking at them.