'Change What Is To Come.'

Teardrops.

I stared down at kurumi's grave, i had killed my wife so carelessly,

Raindrops fell upon the black umbrella i embraced to protect myself from the weather, Kusuo stared down with trembled knees, he looked manic, i had forgotten to remind him to take he's pills before we left to see her.

I had all kinds of questions.

"kusuo, can you see the spirit?"

"kusuo, are you okay?"

"kusuo, do you even know your alive?"

"kusuo, what does it feel like to have your mental power to see all kinds that don't exist?"

"kusuo, you're too manic to answer me, aren't you."

I sighed to myself, too hesitant to bring myself to ask those foul questions.

I had realized by now i was a horrible father.

Right before i had shot her dead, when we were fighting, she had mentioned my drinking problems,

I was an absolute addict, but her voice annoyed me more then it should have.

When we were still in our teenage, innocent years, just like kusuo was right now -

We were so hopelessly inlove, it disgusts me now.

"kusuo..."

I mumbled in shame.

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I looked at the grave, hopeless.

"MOM!"

I screamed with all my heart, tears drifted

"no no why did you have to go away!?!"

I screamed once more, my voice was raspy ever since i wanted to send a message towards my mother in the afterlife.

I felt so suicidal in that moment, I cried until my throat went dry-I still wasn't finished.

"COME BACK TO ME, PLEASE!"

I cried more, the teardrops falling on the dirt that dug my mother inside,

I wanted her to come back, I couldn't bare seeing her,

I thought her ghost was behind me, rubbing my back comfortably, i didn't know she wasn't actually there, but i didn't want her to leave still.

It was actually my father, I wasn't aware, I wasn't aware that it was a murderer.

"FUCK YOU, FUCK YOU YOUR THE WORST MOM EVER, YOU ABANDONED ME, YOU BITCH!"

a mood swing hit me with a sparkly star of anger inside my heart, I was mad, angry even.

She left, without even saying goodbye? Fuck her.

She ruined my left, she dared to leave my side? Her teenage son's side?

That's fucking careless of her.

I wanted to die, mentally and physically right now, in this current situation.

I hated everything in this moment.

"I'm sorry... Please don't be mad at me, mommy, please come back..."

I hated that she left me, I'm too tired, I can't bring her back with my powers...

"kusuo, let's go back home son-"