Clear eyes (Chenji)

Would it hurt?

"It's just a wish" Ten said

"Girl, shut up with your stupid shooting star wishes, they are fake as fuck." Johnny said

"The fuck you mean?" Ten side eyed him and rolled his eyes

I laugh at their bickering, maybe it wasn't a bad idea to go with them.

"What about you." Ten playfully punches my arm with his elbow. I look at him confused not understanding what he means

"Do you believe in wishes?" He asked

"I guess so. I don't know" i answered

I never really thought about the whole thing about wishes. What makes a wish, a wish? Isn't a wish same as a goal?

"See? You're the only dumb one. Johnny." Ten puts his face close to the taller and pokes his chest with his finger

Johnny smirks and leans closer making Ten realize how close they are so he quickly backs off. We laugh at the little moment and soon our happy moment gets ruined when Jaehyun decides to accidentally push over a wine glass.

"Great job las vegas guy" Mark says

"Las vegas guy?" Jaehyun asks laughing

"Guys! It's time for marshmallows!" Haechan yells from a far near the fireplace he took ages to get to light up.

"Oh my fucking god, finally." Johnny said

We all sat near the fire, some of us were burning marshmallows, some of us bread and some were heating up their hands.

It felt like ages since we all gathered up like this. We all got busy with university and other things after high school. I didn't even realize i was smiling the whole time, it felt like time has stopped.

Johnny and Ten broke up yet it's obvious they still like each other till this day, every single time they get close by their eyes sparkle with love. They used to be always together in high school but broke up cause both of them got scared.

On the other hand Mark and Haechan never got together, they've stayed best friends since i could remember, even before i met Mark they were best friends. Haechan told me he has a crush on him since few years ago, i don't know why he hasn't confessed yet.

Jaehyun got a boyfriend after years of heartbreak from his toxic ex. He doesn't introduce us to him but all that matters is that he's gotten more happier, i told him if his boyfriend did anything to him I'll give him a punch in the face. It hurt me seeing Jaehyun sad the whole years.

Jeno and Renjun are the only ones that stayed together since high school. They were seat-mates since 5th grade and slowly started growing feelings for one another. We weren't surprised when they said they were together.

Me? I don't know. I think i've stayed the same for years, never had any relationships, had small crushes and that's it. My friends said i have grown taller and my voice got deeper. But anything else I don't see change.

I've always had freedom for everything, my parents didn't care where i wanted to go, who i wanted to be, with who i was. Which i'm grateful. But now i know nothing. I don't know what i want to be, where i want to go or with who.

"Jisung?" Renjun asked which made me flitch and regain consciousness.

"Huh..?" I looked at him, he got closer to me on the bench while the others were bickering about things and talking about high school times

"What's been on your mind?" He took my hands and looked at me sincerely.

"You've been spacing out multiple times today." He continued

"If something is bothering you please tell, never suppress feelings Ji."

I looked at him, my heart pangs. Maybe i have been trying to escape my thoughts the whole day, maybe I've been trying to lock my feelings up away from Chenle and everyone. But I can't blame myself, i like a ghost and it's weird, my friends would think i'm weird.

"I uhm.." i exhale the air i didn't realize i was holding. Maybe i should explain to him..

"Do you believe in ghosts?" I asked

"Honestly, as weird as it sounds, i do."He chuckled and smiled at me.

"Do you think humans and ghost could be together?" I got bold enough to ask, it was now or never

He looked taken back by the question, taking his time to think.

"Hm.. I mean. Yes and no? It would depend on them. They would have to go through the separation process. Which is a painful thing to experience."

"Separation process..?" I ask confused

"Ghosts will fade away to the afterlife or fade away into a new life. And humans die as well, they either immediately get into a new life, get thrown into the afterlife or get stuck on the world and fade away out of existence." He continued

"So it would depend on them and if they are willing to take on it. Though from what I've researched, ghosts get obsessed with the human being."

"Ah.." i nod

"Why? Did you fall in love with a ghost or something?" He asks

"N-No!" I perk up getting my hands out of his and waving it a no signal

He chuckled and nodded, patted my shoulder and got up to go to his boyfriend. I look at the fire and everything he said replays in my mind, spinning around like circles.

Would it hurt?