Maybe Someday

Chapter 1

Katherine

Katherine sat at her desk,staring blankly at her computer screen.As she stared at it Katherine's mind wandered to the what- ifs.What if she had stayed with Zack? What if they had built a life together? The questions swirled in her mind like a vortex pulling her under.

She was supposed to be writing,but her mind kept drifting off, wandering. It had been years since she had last seen Zack, but the memories still lingered sometimes haunted her. She thought of his bright hazel eyes, his charming smile and the way he often looked at her...as if the world around them didn't seem to matter when she were around. She couldn't help but think about him.

As she types, her words felt hollow. She was writing about love but she couldn't shake the feeling that she was living a lie. She loved Ryan but not the way she loved Zack. Is she just missing Zack because of the memories?Her marriage with Ryan was comfortable,but it lacked the passion and excitement she had once shared with Zack.

Sometimes, like today, she felt like she was sleepwalking through her life.

Most importantly, it lacked the gentle touch Katherine had yearned for since childhood. Katherine's life hadn't always been easy; she had often struggled emotionally as a child, leaving a deep-seated longing for tender. Ryan barely gave her that.

Katherine's eyes closed and the familiar ache of loneliness crept in,like a ghost from her past. She thought marriage would make those feelings go away, but the emptiness was always there. Memories of her childhood flooded her mind- the silence, the tears, the longing for connection.

"No,no,no,"she whispered, her voice trembling. "I won't go back there."

She put her hands on her knees as she tried to take a deep breath in. Jake will never feel the way I did he will never have to go through the things I did. "I'll give him everything I never had-love, laughter a sense of belonging." She said aloud,as if convincing herself. Katherine's 4 year old son meant everything and more to her.