𝐼𝓃 𝓎𝑜𝓊𝓇 𝒽𝒶𝓃𝒹𝓈

Six 🦋

Onika

I got Beyoncé to come to class today and I'm proud. She was skeptical about it but I reassured her everything would be okay.

I just want her to get as much air and back to normal as possible. She will forever be my baby. Together or not.

Even if I'm mad at her, but she'll still forever be able to find peace within me. Especially if she can't find it in herself.

Might've be mad for a little, but I'll never be mad forever.

"Hi Onika." I looked up and Lola was standing in front of me. She tries to speak to me but everytime she does she turns red and nervous. So I'm shocked to see her speaking to me comfortably.

"Hey Lola. How are you?" I asked putting my books into my bag. Class felt extremely quick today, maybe because we didn't read.

"I'm doing good.. uhm I heard around that you were recently single and I wanted to know if you wanted to go out and get to know each other more." She expressed. I just looked at her and back at Beyoncé.

It was kind of bold asking me that in front of her.
Even so, I don't feel comfortable seeing someone else.

"Why are you looking at me? I'd say go for it." Beyoncé shrugged, eating a lollipop. I just looked at her. She's okay with someone else asking me out?

"Uhm, I'm sorry but I'm not really looking forward to dating other people right now. Truthfully, I'm not over this one just yet." I pointed at Beyoncé. She just nodded her head.

"That's understandable. Thank you anyway." I smiled and I watched as she walked up to another girl. Reading her lips she tried to get with her too.

"You just tried to set me up so bad." I said as the both of us watched her run game on another girl.

"My bad sis." I slapped her arm as she laughed. We gathered up our things and walked out of the class together.

"Don't sis me. It's not funny Beyoncé." She was still laughing until she started coughing on that lollipop juice. That's what she gets.

I spotted Nia and gave her a motion letting her know I'll talk to her later.

"Why would you even suggest I date someone else anyway?" She just shrugged.

"Oh I don't want you dating anyone else. But, we are not together so.. I just thought it was a good idea. I don't want to be selfish holding back someone from moving forward because of my issue and I can't be clear on what I want at the moment."

"We are together..." she just looked at me.

"Onika I don't want to hold you up when you could be doing whatever else there is. You shouldn't be doing that. Especially, all over a person."

"I'd rather be with you.." I told her. She looked at me defeatedly.

Beyoncé

"I'll see you later? Okay?" I just looked at her and she looked at me. The conversation she wants to have we just can't keep having constantly.

It's like she just doesn't want to listen until she gets what she wants, me. That's granted but I'm really just trying to give this time.

"I'm not pushing you away if that's what you're thinking, Onika."

"But you are Beyoncé and you don't even realize it. You suggesting I date that girl knowing I just want to be with you is your way of pushing me away." Her lip involuntarily began to pout and I just knew she was about to cry.

"Okay no. Just come to the car with me. Please just don't cry." I grabbed her hand and walked her over to my car.

"You really don't want me no more Beyoncé?" She immediately started crying as we sat down in the car.

"Of course I want you, Onika. I really really do. I just want to make sure I'm okay and stable before going back into the relationship." I'm not understanding why everyone doesn't get that I'd rather be stable than unstable in a relationship. I watched it go bad so many times, I don't want that for me or Onika.

"Does that talk we had the other day don't matter? I made you comfortable enough to trust me to be there for you and you agreed but it's like you're backpedaling."

"No that's not it at all. Onika I just see you as this sensitive little flower who deserves everything that she deserves. I don't want to see you broken." I honestly say.

"I hear you Beyoncé I do. But do you realize what you're doing to me is breaking me? You're the only one breaking me Beyoncé. You're doing exactly what you are trying to refrain from doing. You feel like you're making a solution but you aren't." She expressed to me crying.

I never seen anyone who wants to help someone so unstable, so badly.

"Why are you running from me?"

"Onika, nothing I'm doing will make sense to you. It won't make sense to anybody. I just want to be right before jumping back in. Relationships take a lot of stability. Everyone is jumping down my throat for giving you space but don't see the imbalance it'll bring."

"Every relationship isn't meant to stay on a perfect road, Beyoncé not at all. How long are you going to push me away? Maybe Lauren is right, if you loved me you really wouldn't be doing this to me." WOW she's listening to Lauren now..

"I do love you, Onika. This is why I'm doing this."

"You don't do this to people you claim to love. But, You know what, if this is how you want things. Then so be it. Just know it's..

Fuck you beyoncé."
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Man oh man 😩
It's breaking my heart seeing my favorite couple like this
Yall don't understand 😖

Sorry it's short boos.. the next chapters make up for it.