Dangerous |ksj + knj| (eng)

Chapter 9: Shy

"Champagne?"

Jin looked at the man then at the bottle and nodded. Namjoon smiled and handed it to him as the older raised his eyebrows in question.

"I'm terrible with knives and opening bottles, you or I would get hurt somehow," Namjoon chuckled. Jin grabbed it and opened it almost with ease and poured the wine into the glasses.

"Thank you, you're great," he chuckled again as he sat down and clinked their glasses. They drank the wine and silence filled the air.

"Okay, let's revise it once more," Jin placed his glass down. "We'll sleep with each other and sometimes I can accompany you to some events, but nothing more. My safe word is red. The money will be sent monthly. You won't go over my hard limits nor my safe word."

"One more thing. You'll do as I say. If not, you're gonna get punished."

"Punished?" Jin raised his eyebrows. That was something he started doing quite frequently these days.

"That can include spanking or orgasm denial for example. But even during those, you can say your safe word. I won't get mad or anything. And I almost forgot, you can move in a few pieces of clothing in case yours get dirty or destroyed, you know?"

"Okay, thanks," he folded his legs under him, leaning against the couch. They both were still wearing their pants and shirts from earlier, only their jackets were hanging in the hall. Jin looked the latter up and down for the tenth time today, noticing the gold watch on his wrist or the length of his fingers.

He drank a little bit of the champagne to get some courage to get through this conversation.

"So," he cleared his throat, "soft and hard limits."

Namjoon took a paper and a pen as Jin raised his eyebrows.

"What are you doing?"

"We'll do a list. Firstly, so I remember everything, secondly, from time to time we can come back to this and talk about it more. So, is there anything that comes to your mind that you like? Or you'd like us to try?"

Jin blushed as he took the glass again, downing it. He knew he had to be honest about these things with Namjoon, but he disliked talking about his sexual fantasies. A few weeks ago, he had been a virgin and now he was learning about safe words and what bondage means. He felt incredibly shy, since he still didn't know Namjoon that well and honestly, the whole relationship thing meant they were getting on a personal level.

Namjoon was open about this, which surprised him. He was always taught that people's sex lives are supposed to stay secret and doing "it" was something to be ashamed of. It was a taboo in his household, which added a sort of "wrong" label on the whole act of intimacy. Before he met Namjoon, he had known just a few basic things, which had been: "people have sex because they are in love" and "it is supposed to be vanilla". (And the consent thing of course.) But although he and Namjoon were not together as a couple and their intimate moments were kinky as hell, he liked having sex with the latter.

He thought to himself - maybe there's not a wrong way to have sex if both adult parties agree, which was a new concept for him.

Namjoon chuckled as Jin looked around the room, thinking. "I really like when you um, say a nasty thing to me. Like when you call me a whore and these."

The younger wrote that down as he was listening. "I know we have already done that but receiving or giving oral sex?"

"Fine with me."

"How about sex toys in general?" Jin nodded and Namjoon continued. "Sex toys in public and sex in public?"

"Wait... public? Like in front of everyone?"