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"Hello Mam", Naina said slumping her bag in Shalini's cabin.
"Hey Naina, how come you are in my office?", Shalini asked in surprise.
"Aap bhi kah dijiye ki mujhe aise nai ana chahiye. Protocol follow karna chahiye aur if not urgent ana hi nahin chahiye", Naina said in anger.
"Are are...kya ho gya", Shalini asked sensing some undercurrents.
"All my attempts to bring back Sir is failing. Some days he will be alright but then again on next day will avoid me as plague", she responded.
"Naina....what happened?", Shalini asked.
Naina told her everything which happened in trek when she left and then post that Rajveer now is avoiding him on the stance that since he haven't got any update from HQ so sense in meeting them further.
"Hmm", Shalini said swinging in her revolving chair.
"Mam...ek bat puchun?", Naina asked.
"Hmm", Shalini asked without giving much thought.
"Why you are so concerned about him? I mean he is doing ok it feels. There is a change in him for sure. He is a lot on guard all the time. But he seems ok. Specially with you he is friendly", Naina asked.
Shalini take a deep breath thinking how to explain her angle.
"I don't know how to explain this why I felt this urge to help him or why I understand his situation so much. May be because of age or May be because I myself have faced some situations like this", she said looking at no particular corner.
"Mam...Is everything ok?", Naina asked now in concern.
"Hmm...am I ok? I don't know. May be I am. May be I am not. Naina you might not know but I got divorced 2 years back", Shalini finally confessed something she wanted to share with her from sometime.
Naina mouth opened slightly on this revelation, "mam...kyu? I mean you are so nice".
"Nice....if being nice is enough then their would be so much less injustice in this world. Life is unfair Naina, specially to those who feel more than they let on. I won't bore you with details but basically distance and having a demanding job made us grow apart from last couple of years before finally deciding to get apart", Shalini said finally looking in her eyes.
Naina just keep looking at her, finally realising some changes in appearance of her as well. She is not just looking a bit older but leaner and more matured. She laughed a bit less and smiles are a bit short as well.
"I can't complain to him as well. I was moved on mentally as well but we were college sweethearts and I can't deny it broke my heart to see my relationship failing like this. I was very disturbed. My family blamed me too and I practically had no one to share my pain. I didn't tried to reach out as well. I have closed myself. Kept my pain to myself. Smiling and doing my job as perfectly as always. But I was burning from inside. Slowly my sleep, my moods and then my job started getting affected", Shalini said with a little wetness in her eyes.
Naina pressed her hand which is lying on the table between them.
"I was in a very bad place then. Final signature ke waqt pata nahin kaise use kuch samajh aa gya. He offered to drop me. I was miserable and couldn't drive in that situation and even bad would be to get someone to drop me. I accepted when my 3rd uber cancelled on me. He just stayed as I broke down after my signature and cried in arms of my ex. My ex husband has moved on already. He was engaged by then and I was shattered", Shalini said wiping her tears.
Naina's hold on her hand increased.
"I came back to academy. He used to observe me and finally one day confronted me. I deflected hun naturally but he kept trying. One day finally I spoke a little. It felt good Naina....it felt like some heavy weight lifted from me...that feeling gave me courage to open up more. He is not known to me. He is here for a short time like you. So I was free cause he will leave anyways and whatever he will feel about me wont matter. So I shared more and the more I open up to him the better I felt. He nudged me for more and many times I rebuffed him. But slowly and steadily he healed me Naina....."
Naina is listening to her with a pin drop silence.
"He didn't judged me. He simply let me be and when he was leaving and I thanked him, you know what he said?", Shalini asked Naina.
Naina raised her eyes to ask, too mesmerised to say a single word.
"He said to be there for some one else who needs it like he was there for me. He said karma will reach you through different channels and it's both of our karmas that we met", Shalini said with a beautiful smile lingering on her face.
"When I saw Rajveer, I immediately recognised the signs. You are right Naina, he is fine. He can live like this but do you think this life is worth living? In constant alert, in constant fear. He is in constant fight or flight mode. Every time, everyday. He deserves happiness and hope", Shalini concluded and Naina knew she isn't just speaking about Rajveer.
They both sat there in silence for sometime. Both are unsure what to say post such intense conversation.
A small knock brought them back.
"Excuse me Dr. Shalini, can I come in?", Rajveer asked from door.
She nodded moving away to wipe away her reminder of tears.
"Captain Singh we need to report to HQ on Monday so I booked air tickets from Chandigarh on Sunday evening. Hope it's fine with you?", he asked politely.
"Yes, Sir", Naina nodded without much discussion. She is feeling very overwhelmed now to speak much.
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She excused herself as Rajveer discussed some academy stuff with Shalini.her
She didn't go to her room but. She needed fresh air. She went towards the lake side. The place looks different now. Many trees are now providing shade making it very scenic. She sat on a bench overlooking the water.
What Shalini shared with her took a lot of courage to share with someone. How strong she is to do that. Also how much giving her personality is to help Rajveer Sir like that. She has no interest or selfishness. Just plain thought to help someone.
It's really pro-founding!
She stayed there for a long time thinking about what she told her. It shook her from inside. She always thought life is unfair to her but it seems it's not fair to anyone.
As the dusk started approaching with the sky becoming a mix of orange and golden, she got up to leave. She is in her thoughts and missed someone else who is sitting in some distance from her.
He is looking at her taking advantage of her preoccupied self. He looks like he is in deep thoughts as well. His journal is sitting beside him as he takes in the change of route of the ruling star of our solar system.
The latest entry of the journal says....
Tu fir yad ane lagi hai mujhe,
Ki teri masum adayaon pe dil fir machalne laga hai,
Teri yaadon ko kitni mushkilon se dafnaya tha maine,
Un umeedon to samjhaya tha maine,
Ki namumkin sa hai ye sab,
Par teri ahat se fir vo jagne lagi hai,
Angadaiyan lekar khilkhilane lagi hai,
Ki teri aakhon me doobne ke khwab fir sajane laga hu,
Akele pan ke sayon se katrane laga hun,
Tu fir yad ane lagi hai mujhe,
Ki teri masum adayaon pe dil fir machalne laga hai,
YOU ARE READING
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