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by fluffyuniee

FRIDAY
It started raining heavily today. I didn't bring an umbrella because it was clear in the morning.

I stand by the school gate thinking of what to do. Since i had no friends I couldn't borrow or share anybody's umbrella.

The only person i could think of right now is jake. I stand there thinking of calling him but I don't. He's probably with his friends and we don't talk a lot anymore so it'll be awkward.

I think of calling my mom but she's at work. I take my backpack off and start running towards our apartment complex. It was raining heavily and water was logging everywhere. I was running fastly and couldn't see properly due to the heavy rain.
As i was running i trip on a big rock which I couldn't see because of the water. I trip and fall and now all my clothes were wet.

I reach home 5 minutes later all wet , drenched and a mess. Jake's mom was waiting outside with an umbrella for the both of us when she saw me and shockingly said
omg minju what in the world happened to you!? i just respond with a faint smile saying
well I didn't have an umbrella and i fell while coming home, it's okay tho I'll go take a shower auntie

His mom still in shock, while going upstairs her mom asks me where jake was and i said I didn't know , he was probably with his friends. His mom just looked upset and sorry for me.

I go and take a shower as soon as i come home. I wash my uniform and start drying my hair so I don't catch a cold.

By now the rain had stopped. I baked some cookies yesterday which turned out really good. I put them in a cute jar for Jake's mom. I go over to Jake's apartments gate and i hear them shouting. I didn't mean to eavesdrop but i was waiting for them to stop so i could knock but i end up hearing Jake's mom yelling at him to take care of me from now on.

She told him to be there for me and help me since I don't have a dad or any other sibling. I hear jake shouting back saying that's not his fault and that he doesn't care and that I'm annoying and he isn't my babysitter. He tells his mom that we are just childhood friends and she shouldn't be so serious about him caring about me all the time. That's when jake comes out of the apartment and sees me standing there in front with almost tears in my eyes and with a cookie jar in my hands.

He leaves without even looking at me. I look at his mom coming through yelling at him to behave. His mom sees me standing there and without letting her say anything i give her the cookie jar and quickly bow and leave.

Honestly this felt like a knife to the heart. I considered jake as one of the closest person in my life and for him to just say he doesn't care was so sad. I felt like my whole world had been torn apart.

I just went to room and cried for many hours and went to sleep. I heard my mom come into my room to check on me but I pretended to be asleep since my eyes were probably puffy and I didn't want her asking me why i had been crying.

I woke up the next day with my eyes all puffy and red and swollen from all the crying last night. I expected it but not this bad. I had no motivation to go to school today, it was mainly because of jake. I didn't not want to see him.

However i didn't know what to tell mom since I wasn't sick. I just dressed up and went nonetheless. i sat in my class most of the time since I didn't want to run into jake because our classes were pretty close.

I went to the bathroom during second last period and that's when i saw jake coming from the same direction. Honestly i was really scared and didn't know how to act or how to look at him after that. I just ignored him not even looking at his face and went past him.

He called my name minju? i look back at his face, it looked like he had cried but not too much. I nonchalantly said yeah? he says i am sorry minju , for yesterday
its okay jake i say putting on a fake smile. He's about to say something but i turn around and leave for bathroom.

I go inside the bathroom stall and I can't stop crying. Him apologizing made it so much worse. I just wanted to blame him and think it was over between us but the way he looked when he apologized. I composed myself and stopped crying and just decided to avoid jake as much as i can.

I go back to my class and just sit through the last period without paying attention. It's rainy season so i made sure to keep an umbrella so that I won't get wet.

After the last period i pack my bag to go home. When i go down i see jake standing there alone. I ignore him and just start walking. That's when i hear jake call my name hey minju? i turn around yeah?
can we go home together? It's been a while since we went together jake says
oh I'm sorry i have to go somewhere else, maybe another time i say knowing damn well I don't need to go anywhere else.
He looks at me with disappointment and just says okay

If this was the old jake he would've definitely asked me where i was going or what i was doing since I didn't really have any hobbies and hated public places with crowds but this time he didn't. I figured since we weren't close anymore and not really on the terms to ask each other.

I just walked in the direction of a convenience store, i went in and bought a gimbap roll and an ice cream. I went to the nearest park and sat on the swing and ate my gimbap and my ice cream. I sat there for 10-15 mins and went home.

After i came home i just lied in bed thinking about how bad i felt for jake but his words really hurt me. Even if he didn't mean it, he was the last person i expected to say that stuff about me.