Carl grimes x reader

dear diary part 9

Dear diary my dream was telling the truth negan's here we're all in a line up again he's still cussing a lot he notices me he asked me my name and I tell him my name and he tells me I'm coming with him cuz he wants to get to know his daughter he also spotted Carl he played at him and said Carl's coming as well I saw Rick's heartbreak I knew he was going to take another person with him other than me I told everyone that Rick didn't know it would be his own son luckily needs not killing us we're just going to the sanctuary we could easily be broken out like Daryl was they just got to find out when he gets not going to be there keeping an eye on me at least I have my boyfriend that'll at least make the time a little better I'm going to try and make my dad a better person again like how he was with Mom cuz he turned into a killing machine after I ran away I spied on him that's how I knew he turned into a killing machine that's what I officially ran to see because I almost got caught and if I got caught I would be in deep shit Carl walks over here to the truck we're going to be put in I give him a hug I love him so much cuz he didn't even protest a little bit when negan told him he'd be coming I know it's hurting his heart to be away from his dad and Judith but if this is what it takes he'll do it she doesn't want you to get hurt and finally negan looks at one more person Judith it scares the s*** out of me because I never thought he would think of taking both of Rick's children away from him Rick's heart immediately breaks and so does mining Carl's but as we know what negan would do to that little girl he would traumatize her or he would love her to the brim and never give her back that's what he did with me when I was little let's hope nothing changed my dad always wanted to have three to four kids he had me my brother and my sister but he always wanted another one I was the youngest out of all of them after mom died soon my brother and sister did it was just me and my dad my dad and me you know those daddy daughter dances that happened before the Apocalypse they were so sweet I stepped on his shoes and he helped me dance maybe that could happen again when I go to the sanctuary but I'll never count Carl as my brother because I would be really weird if I was dating him I've always counted Judith as a little sister-in-law or a daughter you could see him pick her up and smile not that scary smile a genuine smile he handed her to Carl to hold just wasn't crying at all she was laughing when he came first met her they immediately clicked just like when Judith met anyone they immediately clicked except for one person and that was Gabriel I understand why though Gabriel was kind of scary when I was that young I joined Alexandria when I was about 11 so I've been here for 3 years me and Carl have been dating for about 1 year now I'm not scared of my dad he still makes me laugh to this day but I don't know if I can forgive him about what he did to Glenn